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Today was a good day for him which makes my day good as well. He is getting close with his family again. They don't understand that need for unconditional love when something like this happens. I love him with every bit of my heart. I can't wait for this nightmare to be over. I know one day it will be and that's what keeps me holding on!
So today I went over my friends house for lunch. I was doing ok until I sat on the floor to play with the dog, and I saw her husbands sneakers by the door. I just started to tear up. I never realized how emotional I would become over a pair of shoes. I kept thinking, her husband will be coming home tonight and I will be going home to an empty apartment. No mans shoes by my front door. No man to cook or clean for. No man to watch TV with. No man to sleep with. Let's just say today was a bad day!
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Today I got a letter from him. He tries to write 3-4 times a week. I read his letters which are more like love letters. You don't really know how much your loved until the physical bond is taken away and the only thing left are words. Its a rainy day. The type of day you just want to stay in bed and watch TV. Its strange for the month of May to be like this. I am so excited to hear from him in a few hours. I miss him so much. I hope that tomorrow will be a better day than today. Weather truly has an effect on the emotions.
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| May 2008 |
Saturday, 5/17
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Last night he called me and it was such a good call. He was laughing and joking. I guess he was excited he's gonna see me. It reminds me of what he was like when he was home. I can't wait to squeeze him so tight!
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