RedeemedInMA's Journal

So this is it. Things will all be different soon. I re-read some of my journal ramblings, letter to husband about 2 weeks after he left. I cried, but I think I'm still numb. Cried for myself. Cried for him. Because it's just sad and wrong that it turned out this way. God, please help my emotions not get the better of me. I know where I stand in the face of my own judgement. I'm redeemed. I'm loved, and I'm valued by the Lord of the Universe, my Father and Lover of my soul. The emotions are temporary, and eventually they will catch up with the joy that is my life because God loves and values me. But the outcome is still sad. It is this experience in life which will make me closer to God. It already has.