Fishn4wheel's Journal

Wow!  Been a few days since I wrote in here.  Been out with my friends a lot lately the last few weeks!  I think I have been out every weekend for the last 4 weeks!  It's been a lot of fun and I am catching up with friends I lost touch with when I was married.  I have been bonding with a couple friends who are going through divorces too, and it helps to know I am not the only one who feels the way I do.  The only thing is, they happen to be guys, and my family has been on my case about me going out with them all the time.  I am getting frustrated with people telling me that it isn't appropriate for me to hang out with them because we are all still married.  Ok, I am really close to them, and we are out a lot, but is it a crime to get support from someone when we all have the same feelings?  Grrrr!!! 

Anyway, hung out with my family a while yesterday.  It was fun!  I lit off some early fourth of July fireworks and we ate til I felt like throwing up!  My family is pretty great for the most part.  I have a huge extended family and I get along real well with most of my cousins.  It's nice to know they got my back, because if it weren't for them, I would have fallen apart a while back!

I think I am going to update some pictures today, so keep an eye out for them!  TTYL!

Few hours later......

Ok, kill the happiness I was feeling earlier!  My ex showed up and took the rest of his things with him from the house!  I knew it was coming, but today for some reason, it pissed me off!  I feel so violated!!  It was a little uncomfortable watching him and his dad come in and just take things.  It shouldn't bother me this much, it's not like I have feelings for him.  Even though I was mad, I can honestly look at him and not feel the love there once was.  Grrrrrr!  I wish I could just get my life going again.  I am hating the starting over part!  I don't want to move, and I don't want this new job!  I want my house, and I want my kids at the daycare back, and I want a decent man in my life who loves me for who I am!!!!!