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Friday, July 25, 2008 | A General Update story

Wish I had more exciting news - that the murderer was in jail for life, that I could go on with my life and fear the long and farce like tra=ial ahead bec. his lawyers will slander my friend's name. The new stuff out, is that she was gay, hmmm, guess who she hung with all the time...anyweay, if she was not gollywagging over him she must be gay right? Shows how much he knows about being gay. Guess he will learn more in central prison.

So I have been bummed and now feel poorly physically this week. Lots of pain. Tonight I have had vertigo which is an old one for me, so I need to go lay down. I have slept a lot this week, read books.

Have to make a decision as to whether I should just move to a bigger yard/smaller house/cheaper mortgoage, or invest in a small farm - 5 acreas and pay to build a house, fence it for horses, etc. Good friends have said Jen would be the first to say no more stress, but you guys know I feel beholden. If there is such a word. You know what the housing market is like......

I haven't been riding much even though we got into low 80s finally. Just don't feel strong, but I did ride the big mare today and she did really well. I took Buddy out yesterday with just a bareback pad and we managed to get lost, pull down a tree ( a baby one) and toss it aside with Buddy being quiet and sweet. A friend said he prob. thought I had gotten a big whip for him and he was scared. NAHHHH, he knows better.

Going off to lay down now, the room is a little spinny. Am going to call a friend of mine in case this gets worse. Horrible thing about being totally alone, dogs can't drive me to Hospital if needed! Buddy turned 1 in April wondering wehat the laws are for him to get his drivers licece. Friend said he would have to take a pen and paper test, I say it is on computer.

Thanks for all my great notes and hugs. Really appreciate the love you guys send - Anne

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I don't know anything about horses, but I think getting out and riding the big mare (that is a horse right? LOL) is a good thing. I know with me, I sit sometimes and just pet Isabella (that would be my 1 1/2 year old mini-chihuahua who thinks she is a horse. On days that I can't do anything, I pet her and I am thankful on that day that I accomplished that. I am so sorry for your loss. The hole in the heart is huge, I know. My 21 year old son Jason was murdered on 1/1/07. No arrests yet, case is cold. So now I work the case, I have become investigator, CSI, cop and that keeps me going. I actually am a retired (due to medical not age) social worker, So now I am a full time artist, dog petter and PI. I started a group Unsolved murder on DS. I just pass on the information that I have learned over the years, so I will get you that info you need on victim witness. Mary

Maryghostmom1
I am on my way--to vacation--but wanted to chk in and wish you the best. I am thinking of you--you are under a lot of stress now and trying to make "lifetime" decisions don't fit in too well, do they?? Give yourself a break, Hon, and take it easier. Be good to yourself and don't push too hard--you will figure it out--what you should do, after you feel better and are well rested. By the way, don't care what others think--just be true to yourself, nothing else matters, anyway. Tight hugs, Judy

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