Appreciating the Day
May 10, 2008 12:26pm
" I was sad because I had no shoes until I met a man with no feet." - Wally Lamb
SmileyChomp’s Profile
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About Me
10 yrs. married, 2 1/2 yrs. of divorce, and now approx. 10 yrs. divorced. My daughter is 17, but I lost custody at age 10 and have never been the same since. A lot of pain , but I've grown. I used for 9 years, everything, and was a Methadone and Meth junkie for 4 1/2 yrs. I'm now clean, 5 1/2 months. I'll never go back to a needle. It was hard to tell my folks and my daughter that I had been leading a double life for years and I'm tired. There is nothing fun for me about using again. I smoke a li'l weed here and there, but thats it besides what I'm prescribed. Now I've enrolled in college( I'm starting part time} I want to be a case manager in social work. But it only by perserverence and patience. But at times I'm thinking too much about my life and the good and the bad. I only snap to action when it comes to giving my give and take answers.
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Recent Activity
Saturday
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SmileyChomp replied to SearchingforSolace’s discussion post Fear of private speaking in the Bipolar Disorder support group 1:55am
Walk into the ER and say it over and over about whats been going on until you get the doc you need. Dealing…
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SmileyChomp replied to Jade5’s discussion post Ambein in the Meth Addiction & Recovery support group 1:38am
If it works in the beginning for you you'll know. With my tolerance, I say they suck. Clonopine(Colonzapam)…
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SmileyChomp replied to hanzay’s discussion post tonight in the Meth Addiction & Recovery support group 1:32am
You already know you'll be setting yourself up for a buzz kill. If you could see into the future I'd…
July 17
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SmileyChomp and lastgunslinger are now friends 12:49pm
July 16
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SmileyChomp gave momacat a High Five 7:30pm
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Hugbook
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hugs for you have a nice wkend.
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sending you a hug for the night.
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Thanks for asking. I am doing good. Yes, I have thought things through. And have weight the pros and cons.. and it comes out with me having to get the help she needs... she is going to let me watch the kids friday. She is going down to the lawyers office to file. So she says.. I'll belive it when I see it when Friday gets here. hugs to you.
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Support Groups
Close Meth Addiction & Recovery
9 YR USER, 4 1/2 OF THEM iWAS A NEEDLE JUNKIE. i'M 5 1/2 MOS. CLEAN, REGISTERED FOR COLLEGE BECAUSE THATS WHERE i CAN USE MY CAREER TO BETTER OTHERS WHO NEED TO KNOW THEY'LL BE OKAY. dON'T LET ANYONE DISCOURAGE YOU.
Treatments
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Too Soon to Tell
- iT'S NOT AS INTENSE AS i THOUGHT MORE PEOPLE WOULD COME OUT WITH SHIT THEY'VE LEARNED AND EXPERIENCED, i THINK WE'LL ALL FIND OUT HOW MUCH IN COMMON ARE DEALING WITH THINGS DAY TO DAY.
Close Depression
ONCE OR SEVERAL TIMES MY DEPRESSION REVEALED ITSELF ANGER, i HAVE PATIENCE NOW. i NEED A FRESH TOUCH WITH GOD EVERYDAY. i MAY STILL FALL, BUT HE HAS PULLED ME OUT OF DEATH DEFYING BENDERS .i'M HERE FOR A PURPOSE. tO HELP OTHERS ADDICTED LIKE ME OR THE NEW KID.
Treatments
- Effexor Working / Worked
- sEEMS TO WORK, BUT IF i'M DOWN i'M DOWN. i GET PHYSICALLY SICK IF i'VE MISSED A DOSE. 300MG. DAILY
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- nO STINKIN' THINKIN' WHEN AT ALL AVOIDABLE.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- i NEED IT , BUT INSURANCE WON'T PAY FOR SESSIONS AND i CAN'T AFFORD IT.
- Trazodone Not Working
- gIVES ME SLEEP,BUT VERY VIVID SCI - FI DREAMS THAT STILL SEEM REAL TO ME WHEN i WOKE UP. sUCKY
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- i WISH i WROTE LIKE i USED TOO.
Open Bipolar Disorder
MOODS CAN BE ALTERED, BUT i TRY TO REMOVE MYSELF FROM 1000 MPH THOUGHT PROCESSES. i TEND TO LOSE PEOPLE IN DEEP THOUGHT CONVERSATIONS.
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Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
sEXUAL ABUSE EVEN THOUGH i CAME FROM A LOVING MOTHER AND FATHER, YEARS OF THINGS HAPPENED WITH NEIGHBOR HOOD BOYS AND 2 UNCLES AND 1 GRANDFATHER. i'VE DEALT WITH IT BY DECLARING IT NO LONGER EXISTS. iT HAS HAD EVERYTHING TO DO HOW i'VE TREATED CERTAIN PEOPLE. mY DREAMS STILL PLAGUE ME WITH EMOTIONAL RELIVING THE PAIN THROUGH MY SCREAMING DREAM. AT TIMES GET CAUGHT IN A MOMENT THAT TAKES ME MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY IT PLACES ME IN A WORLD OF MY OWN. mOST FRIENDS KNOW WHEN
Treatments
- Inderal Working / Worked
- sTOPS MY ROCKING AND LEG SHAKING THAT THE rISPERIDAL i'M TAKING FOR BIPOLAR CAUSED ME TO PREVIOUSLY DO.
- Paxil Not Working
- hATED IT. mADE ME FEEL DULL AND NOT MYSELF.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- WHEN I COULD AFFORD TO GO. BEEN THERE FOR 3 AND 4 YEARS.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- hOW COULD i RELAX WITHOUT THEM?!
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