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Monday, June 30, 2008 | A General Update story

Sorry that I have not been on much lately. With packing and moving and now unpacking on top of more work at the office I just have not had the time. But I have been thinking of everyone and I hope that I am not missing too much. I will get caught up eventually.

My aunt called me tonight to let me know that my cousin had her baby yesterday. I told her that I would go see her once they get settled in at home. I feel like I can handle it today but tomorrow is a different day. I may not be up to it so I am playing it by ear and will just take my time if I need to. I kinda wanna see the baby but then again I kinda don't. This will be my first baby encounter since being pregnant. Only time will tell. I gotta face it sometime.

As for ttc, DH and I are hoping that this is our month but it is just starting so we have a while to wait to see how it goes.

Lots of baby dust to everyone!

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Packing and unpacking so tiring... Take your time in going to see the baby and only go when you feel good and ready. Good luck and baby dust to you.

lvnikita
I'm in the same boat - my good friend (who I've been pretty much avoiding for several months) just had her baby on Saturday. I'm trying to decide if I want to go see them today - and I agree, there's part of me that knows I need to face this, and part of me that would just like to ignore them a little longer. My grief couselor suggested it as a kind of "homework assignment" - to hold a baby in a controlled situation, so if I lose it at least I'll be with someone who understands. So, I think I'll call them today and see if I can just go get it over with.....I'll let you know how it goes.
Baby dust to you this month!

ErinSue
gd luck with everything. i know how crazy and hectic moving is!

erin0718
Do what you feel is best regarding seeing the baby. I know it can sting to be around them sometimes, it definitely depends on the day. Good luck this month!

Jen2279
After going to see my friend and her baby yesterday, there are some things I would do differently, to protect myself a little bit. I had talked to my friend a few weeks ago about wanting her to help me with this - that I wanted to be able to come and see her when there weren't other people around, and that what I may need to do is just hold the baby and cry. I should have discussed it with her again, just to clarify what I needed: a quiet place with just her and the baby so I wouldn't have to worry if I cried in front of other people. When I got there yesterday, there were several other people around, so the experience really wasn't what I needed at all. I just thought I'd share that with you in case that's helpful if trying to decide if you're ready to go visit your cousin.

ErinSue
Hoping this is your month.
Good luck seeing your cousin's baby, it was very hard for me to decide I was "ready"

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