BthMag2's Journal

Has not been a good day , feeling really down.  Nothing seems to be going right.  Trying to hold myself together but its hard.  Found out its will be another 60 days before I get my SSD, so there is no money coming in, maybe living on the street by then.  Don't think that will be good for my health, have exhausted all other avenues, so things are not good.  Having strange thoughts and feelings, kind of scaring me.  The only good thing right now is I found this web site and I am able to write things down hoping that will make me feel better.  I am going to try and find something on this site to make me feel OK.  And not so much of a loser.  Don't like having all theses illnesses they are controlling me and that makes me crazy.  Never felt like this before and don't know what to do.