Touchnheaven's Journal

Hi everyone I just thought I would sit down and write something so this is it lolI have been dealing quietly inside my head and sometimes out loud to myself as well. I’m thinking that I have a lot of issues and most of them involve me .lol.Sigh…I don’t want to bore you but I do have some things on paper I will type out and post eventually when I am feeling better some of you may notice less dread in the words I write which are an attempt for me to help myself out of whatever issue I am having. I haven’t written much lately but I did try to let myself have fun the other day and so I will type it out now.

 Just for fun 

Today, just for fun I’ll say something good

Something good about my life as I know I should

I need to dig through the clutter and figure me out

Tired of myself whining and I don’t want to pout

So I’ll look to my kids, through all of the annoyances

I’ll see the love, through the need, before I destroy

I’ve been down and out for way to long

And if I don’t smarten up they will be signing a song 

A song for a girl who can’t wait to die

But to live this life, I must, or at least I must try

I need to try to get past all the pain and the hurt

I need to live life with happiness before I turn into dirt 

Happiness, hmmm, I wish I could find some of that

I have to make my own, I figured just now as I sat

See, it’s been almost 24 hours since I gave up on this thought

Had a good sleep then woke to a new day and a new series of shots 

Gotta go again cuz kids will all be here again soon

5 pm wont happen fast enough, I need a zoom

A zoom to the future or a zoom to the past

This life sometimes feels to slow but it really is to fast