lib998877's Journal

I do not know what to do. Everything is falling apart. I'm falling apart. It's getting harder to hold on. She knows I know..yet stills denies it. I can smell him on her. She wears new perfume... She smells good. I cannot find the bottle of perfume. Everything about her is different the sex, her clothes, lingerie, music, personality..... I never thought it would be this way! She treats the children different... it was always about the kids... now it's about her. On mothers day my son went down stairs and watched tv. Normally he would have climbed in our bed and cuddled with mom. She did not notice. She does not see the children drifting from her. They come to me now comfort and this makes me sad. I love my children but they need the love from their mom. I cannot get through to her. She has her mind made... She wants both and I don't know if I can live with that.

I'm going crazy...

I want off....