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Today is Sunday. It has been a shitty weekend. She was with him again on Friday. Came home from work...all clothes right in washing machine. I need proof! She is pressuring me to go away Memorial Weekend with the family and friends. I am not going. She wants to keep appearances. I want time to think and show others things aren't so normal. I think she is in love with the OM. I think she wants to divorce me. I think she is trying to finish the school year so she does not get fired. I am confused and do not know what to do. I only have suspicions as to who the OM is. In reality, it could be two. My friend..... a one-time thing and the other. I do not know. What I cannot deny is all the facts that brought me to this cross road. None of which she confessed to. She knows I know and she loves this. She is cruel, hurting our children and blames me.
I feel alone...desperate..... and sad.
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What have I done?
Am I responible?
Did I make her so miserable that she felt there was no other alternative?
Did I take a beautiful soul and taint it?
We fought....
the words were harsh.....
for both of us.......
why is this happening?
She is being malicious......
wtf
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No, no, no your not responsible for an "A" if thats what is happening thats all on her!!!!!!!
Sure we all have issues in our marriages which we each are responsible for and responsible to work out together but if one person goes outside it then that is on them and them alone.
My wife was in a fog, she bought into everything the SOB fed her for years. I dont think I will ever understand how one could do such a thing to their spouse but I did gain an understanding of how our problems opened the door to allow it to happen. It was not until after she was caught and she actually saw me start packing things up, and take down all our family photos and see me break down puking constantly and sure I'll admit it even crying like a baby before she could see how she was destroying our family.
Her being malicious sounds about normal to what many have gone throuh here. Its her putting the blame on you for what she is doing. Thats unfortunatly very common. Not to get you down but the road is going to get even worse as you go right now. But it can get better. I know its hard but YOU NEED TO STAY STRONG FOR YOURSELF right now....
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LT2 is right you need to stay strong for yourself right now. It is not your fault she chose to have an affair, and she chose to go outside your marriage instead of fixing it. Sometimes people need to lose something or someone to appreciate what they had or have. Hang in there you can get through this as tough as it seems right now. Hugs
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I came across you journal and I am sorry you are going through this. The 1st time my H had an affiar, it took until I had proof til he admitted it. The 2nd time, it took 3 weeks until he admitted it. The OW had contacted me out of the blue. I never suspected anything. After that, I purchased a GPS tracker. After about a month of using it, I found that he had stopped at OW's work. If you think she's cheating and possibly thinking of divorce, you need to protect yourself and your kids. You need to find out the truth. Good Luck.
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I'm sorry.
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