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Hello everyone. This is my first entry in my journal here. I have been going through alot in my life. And now I am ready to write about it. As you all know, my husband cheated on me and I am having one hell of a time trying to deal with it especiall since I have decited to stay with him. (I don't know why but I love him and this could be really harmful to my mental health) During my childhood I was molested by my grandfather and brother. This has been very hard for me to even say here and it took 6 months in therapy for me to even say it. But I want to be honest with every one who would like to be in my life and I don't want to hide anything any longer. My childhood was not so happy. My father cheated on my mother the whole time he was alive (He died of cancer and I still can't deal with it) and it made an impression on me that I would always be treated the same. High school was no picnic as the girls always wanted to pick fights with me or make up stories that were really damaging to me. My senior year of high school I got into drugs while my father was dying and my step mother who was a peice of work would always tell me that he didn't love me and never did and I would always be treated like I was a no one or worthless as she liked to say. After my father died, I found the love of my life (After many failed relationships with the same result they cheated on me). That is all I can write for now as I am just hurting too much for this.
