xqgaray's Journal

It might seem like nothing is going on with me but the truth is different. Everyone asks me "when are you going to have another baby? your son needs a little sister" I always say soon or I don't know. But the thing is that I do want another baby sooo bad. Doesn't anyone understand what I'm going through? Evan people that knew I had a miscarriage are ignorant and ask the same thing. I am grateful to have my son who is now 3 years old. I would pray so much for God to give me a baby and he did. My son was born in March 2005. In late 2005 I was prg again but had a spontanious abortion in Jan 2006. Then in March 2007 I found out I was prg again. I was o happy I remember it like it was yesturday. I went to the docotr for a yearly check-up and I told her that I thought I was prg. She did a test on me and I went home. I was waiting for the results for about 2 days until they finally got here. The test was positive!!!! As soon as I saw the results I ran to my bedroom and jumped on the bed and told my husband. I couldn;t stop smiling!! I was sooo happy!!! Just like the first time. But then a few weeks later I had really bad cramping and I started to bleed heavy and badly I was bleeding so much I had blood on my legs!! I was terrified and I went to the doctor. She made an ultrasound and said I had a miscarriage! I was devastated. That happened last year. I have been trying to get prg ever since but still nothing. Every month I think that I might be and hope so bad that I don't get my period. I went to the doctor and she saidd everything is fone that I'm probably just not trying on the day of Ovulation but how can that be I was sex like 4-5 times a week. I need help, support someone to talk to becuase I can't get over my m/c. Everybody around me gets prg but me. Don't get me wrong I'm happy for them but I feel soo sad.