slow start...
May 9, 2008 2:27pm
I am on day two of not being able to leave my skin alone :( I will try harder not to touch my face tommorrow!
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katycakes
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About Me
Everyday I try to become healthier and stronger. I do not want to be a victim of my bipolar disorder. It's not too say that I don't have days when I wish my heart would stop beating, or I'd get hit by lightning, I have just realized that these dark self loathing thoughts aren't the "real me" they are symptomatic thoughts of my illness. If I try and distance myself from the truly destructive thoughts then I can find a little peace in the midst of being bipolar. I truly wish everyone strength, peace and comfort in their journey! I want to be a friend to anyone who needs support! Let me know how I can help :)
Interests
I love to do anything outside! Surfing, hiking, camping, kayaking, skydiving, snorkeling, horseback riding, playing soccer or catch, BBQS, picnics, and painting are a few of my favorite outside activities! I love swimming with the dolphins while I am out surfing. It is so amazing to see them so up close and hear them underwater! I also love to practice yoga and meditation. I love to study alternative medicine and the power of the mind. I think the new biology connections between mind and body are truly fascinating. The Theater of the Mind podcasts are awesome, you should check them out! I strive to be the best person I can be and work towards becoming more conscientious every day. I am passionate about getting involved in the community and serving others. Traveling is another passion of mine. I hope to see at least 30 different countries before I am 40!I can see myself someday traveling the world working for UNICEF or volunteering with exotic animal conservation programs.
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CRAP
May 8, 2008 9:30pm
Dang~ I am so disappointed in myself- I have been trying really hard not to pick on my face when i am feeling down- but I did.... my face is already …
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My first entry...
May 6, 2008 10:18pm
I have never done anything like this before, but I thought I'd give it a try after someone from my in person bipolar support group …
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sending big hugs, hope you're having a good day.
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Big HUGS to you. Hope you're having a good day :) Love & Hugs KR :)
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Hey just wanted to send you a hug I know your haveing a hard time dealing with your stressors in life and it causes you to mutilate yourself and honestly I dont have any answers for you except that I feel for you and wish I could give you solace. But I know its difficult when you feel so strongly about something but at the same time feel totaly out of control. Some days its good and some days its bad. It may feel like most are bad but remember your strong and smart and you will get through this to. Im sure youve been through worse in your life if you think about it and youve survived so remember youll survive again. Hope this helps a little. Gotta Go. PEACE!!!
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Hugs to you! Thank you! I am finally starting to feel better. I think the hot weather was making it harder on me to feel good. Hope you are doing well.
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And also with you. Things are going slowly around here. I feel like Im in slow motion today. Might be the weather. Im used to being in overdrive but cant seem to find that gear lately. I dont know why but it is annoying since Ive got alot of things I need to do. I am doing the work to get it done but I dont know if the work is effective. Im kinda going back into my lost phase of life. I know what I need to do but I dont know where to start. Im just goin through the motions unsure if its even worth it in the end. I dont know maybe tomorrow will tell. Maybe Ill figure things out and find my path in life but at the same time I feel its to late for me to find my path. I know its never to late but Im not gettin any younger and the answers arent commin any faster. Oh well I need to send some more messages out. Ill talk to you later. PEACE!!!
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 three years ago when I had my forst major manic episode. Prior to that I was thought to have severe clinical depression when I had been hospitalized for a pill overdose. I have been pretty stable for the last three years but I am looking forward to finding more support on this site!
Treatments
- Depakote Not Working
- was horrible for me! I felt like a blob of a person, I never felt happy or too sad. i felt like I was just "there" I had no motivation...I also had gained 20lbs and had intense sugary carb cravings- also my hair was thining
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- I go to a group once a month- it's nice to hear other people's stories
- Holistic Health Working / Worked
- I am on a daily regiment of vitamins. Also acupuncture really helped me!
- Lamictal Working / Worked
- This has been the best medicine for me so far! I finally have regained intrests in my old hobbies I like prior to my episode.
- Lithium Not Working
- I hated the side effects!
- Risperdal Working / Worked
- It helps me not to pick on my face
- Seroquel Not Working
- It made my mind feel terribly slowed, and I felt very lethargic
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- i think this worked? I am no longer on it though.
- Zyprexa Not Working
- this also made me feel disconnected and constantly groggy
Close College Stress
I am 27 yrs old still trying to finish my BA. I have had so many health problems that have kept me out of school, but I am back in school and trying to take things day by day
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- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Sleep Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
Open Breakups & Divorce
I was divorced four years ago but still feel the effects in my self esteem! I also have devloped some severe trust issues because of the past hurt!
Treatments
- Love Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
I have a horrible obsession with picking on my face until it is scarred and bleeds. I am getting better everyday and resisting the urge to pick!
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