dveroeven's Journal

My name is Debbie and I lost my Daughter in an automobile accident in July of 2007. I am still finding it rather difficult to deal with. Stephanie was only 28 years old and left behind her beautiful children along with her husband and her Brother Jason. I personally am really dealing with a ton of guilt. I was incarcerated when my Daughter passed away. I was incarcerated in Nebraska and my Daughter died in Texas and they would not allow me to attend her memorial. Needless to say my guilt is extremely awful. I have gone through a grief recovery program while I was incarcerated but the pain is still terrible and I am sure it will be there for a long time. I made some poor choices and allowed drugs to mess up my life, the reason for my incarceration. I am out and doing marvelous, with one exception, that being the loss of my Daughter. I am working and I have goen back to school full-time, your never to late to go back. I will be celebrating my 50th birthday come August. I am going into the nursing field because this was a common desire that myself and my daughter had, you see she was in the medical field too. I am trying to re-group and move forward. I make each day mean something, no regrets for me in any of my choices now. Life is to short and I know that I will one day see her again. I just sometimes feel overwhelmed with such sadness.