Barnes's Journal

Today I am struggling with some weird feeling's but its not any different than any other day.
Tonight at 6:30 I am going to attend my first meeting at Akron General's DBSA meeting. Looking forward to that. Have to go back to work tomorrow. Thanksgiving is on Thursday. Kinda looking forward to that but at the same time I'm not. I love to get the family together but I get under a lot of stress. But it will be good. Other than that everything is going good.

Today is going pretty good, hey its the weekend. Don't have to work. Thats awsome. I love where I work. I work at my parents company. But I get so stressed out when I am at work. The people that I work with they are really annoying. I meen they are good people but all they do is complain and tell the same jokes everyday, I mean they were funny the first 100 times you know what I mean. And everyday I suffer with problems. I have werid mental feelings, cant describe them I just feel werid. I also suffer with depression. And I have a problem with thinking about the past and what I have been through and I have been through a lot. Last year was the worst year of my life. And the years before that were to great either. So thinking about the past everyday really makes me depressed. But today is going pretty good. Went to Wallmart with my sister, bought some sweatshirts. Went to a cd store and bought the new Akon CD I have been wanting. Just going to relax. Maybe do something fun and exciting this weekend. Not likely though.

Well today is my first day being on this web site. Seems pretty cool. I have read some subjects. Found some interesting things. Hope to meet cool people. Other than that feelin good.