i hate bulimia
am sooooo struggling with my ED..i hate that!! i gainned weight!&the problem that my parents don't know about …
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I feel like I'm being thrusted into the real world now.
Bulimia creates such a disturbing world of fabrication around me, where even I don't believe it when I say, to myself, "You have a problem." The disease has caused me to lie to my loved ones. It has caused me to despise my body, but most of all the destructive methods I use to mold it.
Recently I finally came clean--to myself--about the fact that I've had bulimia for about 4 years now. I want to start taking advantage of therapy, but the insurance I would use comes from my parents, and I am still afraid to tell them. I'm not sure how to muster up the courage, or what to say. If anyone has suggestions to get the ball rolling, I would appreciate it! I'm sure there are ways to put it or certain key words to use that won't scare my parents to death, or at the opposite end, make them blind to the true extent of my disorder. For now I'm taking baby steps. I joined this online support group to get a feel for other people in my position, and how they've dealt with eating disorders. I am optimistic, because seeking any kind of help shows that I am now willing to do something about my problem.
I admire anyone who has overcome their adversities, and I hope to be more like them someday! :]
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Good for you, you have just done the hardest thing, and that is to admit to yourself that you have an ED (horrible word) and to seek help from others. I'm betting that your parents are already aware that something is not quite right with you. You may think your doing a good job of hiding it, but loved ones usually know you have a problem before you do. My advice is to be completely honest with your family. This disease teaches us how to be good liars, and it is so liberating to finally be open and able to share your burden with the most important people around you. I have a daughter your age, and I know that if she shared her turmoil with me I would do nothing but love her even more and support her every step of the way. Give your parents the chance to do the same. As hard as it is for my family to see my struggles, I know that they feel a lot less hopeless being a part of my recovery. Maybe you could get them to read this journal. I bet they will be proud of you for reaching out and asking for help. Stay strong and if you cant be strong today, let someone else be that strength for you. Sorry, probably sounds corny. Just want you to know that people on this site really do care and I think that for most of us this site is a form of therapy all on its own. Talk to you soon.
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