preshuz89's Journal

So. We finally ended our relationship last night. At least now I won't have to sit at home on nights when he decides to go out drinking and worry him all night. At least now I won't have to babysit him when he has too much to drink. I really do miss him already though.. but I know it's for the best. I don't think the drinking was the only problem. He's changed. Maybe I have too. It's just so hard to end a relationship that meant so much to me. And it's so weird not speaking to him every second of everday, like we have for the past two years..

I feel horrible that I told him we can't stay friends, but honestly it'd be too complicated. There are too many feelings still there, on my part anyway! I dunno about him. I still feel depressed, but I can finally eat and sleep a little bit better. My heart is still beating weird, and my family tells me I should go to the doctor. I think it will go away when the pain does though.. Any thoughts?

I really am terrified of losing my friends though. He'll probably be seeing them more since they party a lot and I don't. I hope they don't all become closer to him than me.. Who knows. We'll see.

At least I can get away from it all next month.. A long, well needed vacation!