Erin34's Journal

Who's enjoying this saga - will Spielberg come calling to make a movie of my life?  Holy drama, I'm not used to this.

 

Today I got an email from my boss that upper management is requesting an audit of our project and that I need to be prepared next week to defend every single nugget of info and every estimate and every this and that and the plan and the history and and and ... holy crap, buddy - pipe down, back off!!  I've only been on this project for 4 months but the project is 3 years old.  I don't know all the history ... but he should!!

 

I'm sick of him passing the buck - especially down - doesn't every parent instinctively know you try to stop any negativity at "your level" if you can, don't pass it to your kids?  Well I'm not a parent but that's my preferred management style.  I don't sh-- on people who report to me, not even if my boss sh--s on me.  Hard as it is to believe I've found it's not exactly a great motivator.

 

So with my stepfather's voice in the back of my head (go on the attack!  gather your facts and throw it back at them!) and some advice I read by Goldfish (document everything!) ... I emailed back saying that I would focus on details of the plan for future and if he wants me to look at something specific from the past, he should let me know what he needs since I haven't been involved.  Oh, and I copied the VP on my email just like he did...  (ain't nobody turnin' this on me in front of the VP)

 

Well ... woops.  It appears the pot hath been stirred.

 

I got a reply email almost instantaneously.  I barely read any of it but I caught things like "I don't know why you're even bringing this up" and other emotional remarks.  I could *feel* the tension.   I stopped reading it before I had a panic attack.  Coat on, exit stage left.  She said sayonara, she said see ya later ....  (thank goodness it was close enough to end of day anyway)

 

I'm not sure I'm going back to work on Tuesday.  I think this might be my cue to start stress leave.  Oh btw did I mention the person I took over from on this project also went on stress leave in December?  Hark.  Shocking.  What's the common thread?  One person..........   riiiight.

 

I'm really finding this site very helpful and therapeutic.  I'm far more comfortable sharing this way than in real life.  You guys give me strength and courage I didn't know I could have at this time.  I thank you all.