Journal Entry for July 20, 2008
July 20, 2008 11:50am
So I finally told them about my friend's death today, it was a miracle that I could get it out amongst all the tears and sniffling My mum …
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I can't be myself around anyone anymore because i don't know myself.
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About Me
I like the concept of life but I am more of an observer. I also appreciate nature and the simple things..As the years go by though, it's getting harder and harder to get myself inspired. I guess, my main reason for joining DS is because of feelings of regret, guilt, confusion, neglect, etc. due to the passing of my friend. I also believe that I may have atypical depression, for the 6th year running..
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driftwood08 replied to VixyPixiePants’s discussion post What colour is your face today and why? in the Depression support group 11:25am
red, cos it feels like it's been smashed over and over again against the wall…
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driftwood08 replied to IDKwhatIwant’s discussion post a life without religion in the Depression support group 12:44pm
I truly believe that I would be the same, regardless of religious influence. As a child I grew up in…
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driftwood08 gave dpossum a Hug 11:31pm
Hey you're welcome :) I hope you feel better…
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I'm a failure
June 30, 2008 11:28am
I just failed my goal..I just can't seem to buckle down and will myself to do anything...
No one's ever around, or it's never the …
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A tribute
June 28, 2008 11:43am
This was a video I made a while ago
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CG5ZSZtw6Jg
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Rant (Posted on 05/29/08, 01:05 am)
June 19, 2008 12:02pm
(I had actually posted this in the bereavement forum a while back, it didn't receive any replies and I realise that it's a bit …
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I have a confession..
May 9, 2008 12:00pm
The moment I found out that my friend died, one of the first feelings I had was of jealousy.. I did feel ashamed and angry with myself afterwards, …
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A big hug for you my dear
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thking you for the discussion response, your about the closest to how i feel
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I'm good just started back to school for summer quarter so my mind should be busy that will help the depression
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Hugs to calm your fears. Family is so important. I really get that fear.
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Close Bereavement - Teens
driftwood08 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a FriendMy friend died on the 15th of October 2007, due to suicide. I feel very guilty and full of regret whenever I think about it. The worst thing about it is that I found out 5 months afterwards through my sister who heard it from a friend. That gutted me because we used to be close, and I slipped from his family's mind...Right now, I'm struggling a little because I don't know how to tell my parents who knew him also..
Treatments
- Crying Working / Worked
- Getting Angry Working / Worked
- Only a temporary fix, by redirecting the pain..
- Keeping Busy Working / Worked
- I got a job around the same time I found out about it, and it's helped.
- Music Working / Worked
- Remembering Working / Worked
- Only the good memories..
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Open Depression
I think I may have atypical depression, it came about when I was 14 without any real reason. At first I thought that I would grow out of it but as the years went by it only got worse on and off. My only help came from a few sessions with my school councellor, however it made no real change. I left damaged and straight into Uni. Two years later my life is built wih lies. None of my friends or family know that I feel like this..
Treatments
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- I'm not very good at writing so my thoughts never come out right on paper..
Open Anxiety
I try to set everyday goals for myself but I can never go through with them..I experience a lot of dizziness, tiredness, headaches, and a dry mouth.
Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
A friend of mine committed suicide, and I've had feelings of jealousy towards this morbid achievement..I'm such a weak person, confused as all hell..
Treatments
- Sleep Not Working
- Its always hard waking up.
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