soulmategone's Journal

Well today is 9 months since you went to the LORD!!!    On Father's Day I stayed home & thought about all the past Father's Days, God Stock, camping, fishing, church........I just PRAISED THE LORD THAT YOU WAS W/OUR HEAVENLY FATHER...NOTHING BETTER THAN THAT!!!!!!      I worried about the kids & how they were doing...Jackie just spent the day w/her Mom reflecting about you...Justin got re-Bapstisted in the creek...David spent it w/friends...& the other girls I don't know.       I call Mom Marion & your brother, she was so sad..she was thinking about your dad & you, I finally got ur shirts to Glen..he loved them....Mom cried about the jewlery I sent...they had ur birthstone & hers in the bracelet & locket, then LOVED the other necklace that matches my Mom's. They loved the pics.....they cried.laughed & cried more. I still have to get Jackie's & David's stuff sent out I will this wk.

I rested today I've been on the go all wk., w/spending time w/Mom on her BD, she was wearing the jewlery I gave her.....she has put on 17-1/2lbs.....PRAISE GOD!!!! she looks beter!!!!  

I've got new shaded & drapes for the house & getting them up......the mounts are still laying on the spare bdr bed, Justin will have to put them up I can't!!!  

I was in the yard for abt 8hrs on Tues. wrkg, spraying Round-Up, trimming, planting more FLOWERS, JUST IMAGINE MORE than 350 already!!!! I found a bird nest in one of the trees, Mama wasn't happy w/me but knew I was just getting the weeds out. I haven't seen her yet, but the eggs are blue w/black spots. In the front yard I found a Robin egg laying in one of the flower areas, I guess Mama didn't make it to nest in time.  

I've been getting out more & trying to look better when going out, instead of running around w/o makeup, so I feel better. Started a diet to loose those nagging lbs. Also starting taking my VITAMINS DAILY that's helping!!!!  

I miss you but I've decided that you would want me to go on so I took off my wedding band & took yours off the necklace....THAT WAS HARD!!! To me we are still married, but God REMINDED that YOU WANT ME TO MOVE ON & BE HAPPY, so I'm going to try.  

Keep running into friends that I haven't seen in a very longtime, they didn't know you but they knew that you had died, so they were very nice.

I'm starting to go to church again, not sure which one I will land at, but GOD WILL LET ME KNOW!!!!!  

I've been emailing a man who contacted me by email, so we are chatting, he seems nice & YES HE IS A CHRISTIAN & HANDSOME!!!!! But he lives out of state, which is probably good at this time.  

Court case hasn't been settled yet, 9-1/2yrs later but setting a trial, so just waiting!!!   

Business is going good but still going to shut it down when the case is settled.   

I'm trying to move forward, but it is slow going, but better SLOW THAN NOT AT ALL!!!!!

I figured out something last wknd, getting dressed & going shopping or to out, that COMING HOME WAS THE HARDEST THING BECAUSE THE HOUSE IS EMPTY EXCEPT FOR THE DOGS!!!!!   

I took the dogs to the vet & Buddy has to have surgery next month on his knee, I'm taking him in in July to get his teeth cleaned & they will xray his hip & leg to see if the liagment is ruptured, I CRIED ALL THE WAY TO Mom & Dad's to ask them what they thought I should do, Dad & Justin decided that Buddy healthy enough & that I should go ahead & have the surgery so he's not in pain. Then Katie's will have her anal glands removed in Sept., so it will be back to back surgeries.         

Still not sure about the cancer.

I LOVE YOU BUT I'M GLAD THAT YOUR IN HEAVEN IT IS CRAZY DOWN HERE, the election is crazy, flooding is bad....THE LORD WILL BE BACK SOON!!!!