Fanniefern's Journal

Why has the world forgotten about it's people?

Everyone it too busy and I am so alone I can't stop thinking about how simple it would be to spend some time with me.

No one can or wants to help me.

Couseling isn't working and I can't even attend. I am stuck in the house with no one to see and no one to call out to. The psychiartist is only going to up my meds... I honestly don't think that will help.

No one wants me and I don't want myself.

I hear that saying, "you can't love anyone until you love yourself." Bull-poop. No one loves themselves, truly, There is always something there that someone doesn't like abotu themsleves.

Damn me.

People suffer everyday and all people do is look the other way.

People die even if they ask for support, two people on this site alone have tried to committ suicide, whats the point or reaching out? 

I feel pain for those I never knew and I feel my overwhelming pain every minute of every day.

I don't want to call a hotline, I don't wnat to go to the hospital, it won 't help, it didn't before. They treat mentally ill people so badly in this society and to top it off they treat fat people like lepers, not to mention having cancer, man I am really am damnned.