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Friday, May 16, 2008 | A General Update story

So trying to figure out what happened and why I keep relapsing on gambling. So sick of lying to my kids and spending all the money. Will continue to ask my HP for help. Haven't gambled for a couple days so am feeling better about that. Money is about gone so need to stop now before I get myself into a real bind. Went to the doctor to get the medication to take away the impulse to gamble but my doc wouldn't give it to me. Stopped taking the Geodon as it was making me sick. Doc wants me to start on Abilify. Not too willing to try another med right now. Hot tubbed today and took in some sun. Worked my one shift. Will try to go fishing tommorrow. Was honest to my boyfriend about my gambling. Maybe I can lean on him for support now?

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I wish you all the best. I know the thoughts and the guilt you feel after relapse, also the lack of understanding how it happened. What I have finally realised for me after banging my head against the brick walls of life is I absolutely can't gamble. I want someone to take all the urges away too - telling someone , being completely honest really helped me. I think it is a turning point. I wish you well - hugs to you for today and lets make it GF! Suzi

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Hi LaDonnaDee,
My name is Tessa and I am a complusive gambler also. I have been here at DS almost a year and I love the support and journaling it really helps. I hope that we can be friends and share our story with each other.
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Tessa

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Hello chick,

I'm glad you are here looking for answers and practical advice and sometimes a open ear. I live and die by the site as a means to help me with my Compulsive Gambling. Like Tessa said, I'm a compulsive gambler and I'm trying (and still trying) everything to keep me in active recovery. It sounds like you have an idea about what you need to do. Keep searching until you can find that one (or two or three or four) strategy/method to stay away from your demons. Honesty and rolling up your sleeves for "A hard day's night" was big for me. I had to get brutally honest and start working on recovery before it killed me.

Hope that you keep journaling and using this site.

Light up the darkness,

Chris

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