sux2bhurt's Journal

Once again, awaken to the hollow, empty chest. 

Crap.  I was hoping the not so bad time would last. 

Maybe though, its not quite so bad now as it was before.  Maybe just an almost imperceptible bit better.  I hope I'm not imagining it.

I need to deal with the liar today.  She is going to try all her guilt tactics to get me to take our son for all 3 of my days off.  Right now I am inclined too, but it isn't fair.  She basically tells me she wants time and I shouldn't, if I do I "never loved her".  Guess today I calmly reply, "sorry you feel that way, but it doesn't really matter, you already made your decision and I will make mine.  How you want to spin my feelings isn't something I can change".

Man, I'm tired.  Going to be good to be leaving this nightshift soon, I'm sick of resetting my body clock every couple days.  Particularly since the cheating was revealed, I have to be up early with the kid, but sleep in the day when I'm working.