eowyn79's Journal

Life really does throw you some curve balls: this a phrase I came across in a blog this morning by JulieC, and I have been thinking about that quite a bit lately.  I have heard the saying before, but it struck me today as very appropriate to my current situation.  I haven't exactly been calling my current life situation a curve ball, more a curse, a private hell and a few other choice words which, when I dwell on them, do me no favors towards the healing I desperately need right now.  I get caught up in the details, the pain, the constant asking why, why, why.  I imagined that curve ball, coming at me, as if I was in 7th grade again and it was softball season-those girls could never throw a ball straight.  And there I am, trying with all my might to hit that sucker.  I didn't consider failure an option, yet sometimes I did fail.  And yet I moved on to the next try, the next time.  Life is never perfect but if you can have a positive attitude about it, it makes it a lot easier.  I guess that's what I tried to do during softball...just imagine hitting that ball, even if it was a curveball and I missed.  My current situation is no 7th grade softball game, but I have been trying to put it all into perspective.  Just...imagine it like a curveball, you may miss a few times, like I seem to be doing right now, but eventually, I'll hit the ball.