brokenhearted4's Journal

I guess one of the hardest things for me is why. I knew that we were going through a rough time but I thought things would get better. He was focusing on his last semester of school and I was working long hours with my commute on top of it. It just seemed like he wanted out for a long time and he wasn't honest about it. I would ask him what was going on and he would say nothing. He proposed last year our ninth year together and then when I asked why he did that he said he thought it would make things better. I mean I know I am not innocent in all this I did and said things I am not proud of but I was willing to work on things. He would pose questions to me and I would answer but they were like just general questions and he was feeling things out but was not telling me. Things that I didn't think applied to us.