Lately
July 1, 2008 6:03pm
I want to start this entry with a thanks to you guys for asking if I wanted to talk about it...and the truth is that I did but every time I tried I …
Goal Completed on May 19, 08
ellyze’s Profile
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ellyze
is feeling Good
About Me
I am just a plain ordinary person who does not know where they are going in life. I am content that way. I do not want to get married or have any kids. I am afraid of going through labor and more afraid of marrying the wrong person.
Interests
Baseball, 2012, the unknown/unexplainable
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Recent Activity
Yesterday
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ellyze gave angelwings4u a Hug 12:25am
Thanks so much!! Stay safe yourself!…
Tuesday
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ellyze gave whyrae Flowers 6:03pm
Thank you for the hug. Here are some flowers. Are you going to be joining the Need a Good Laugh group?…
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ellyze wrote a journal entry: Lately 6:03pm
I want to start this entry with a thanks to you guys for asking if I wanted to talk about it...and the…
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ellyze gave robertbm a Hug 5:53pm
Just wanted to throw you a hug! I am looking forward to the all-star game this year...lots of Rangers!…
Monday
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ellyze gave englishheart a Shout Out 2:33pm
Way to go lady!…
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ellyze commented on englishheart’s journal entry Journal Entry for June 30, 2008 2:31pm
You are a rare optimist. That is definetely an enviable quality.…
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ellyze gave englishheart a Hug 2:25pm
Thanks so much! I want to get a picture of myself up here but alas, I have none. XOXO…
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ellyze gave carla7777 a Hug 2:25pm
I figured that it probably won't cure you, but it might help and if it tastes as good as its name, maybe…
Sunday
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ellyze changed their mood to Good 10:12pm
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ellyze commented on englishheart’s photo/video 6:13pm
You have such pretty teeth!…
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Journal
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Fathers' Day
June 16, 2008 4:40pm
Well Fathers' Day sucked a big toe...good thing my dad doesn't care about it...that is all.
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An Awesome Update...
June 13, 2008 9:51pm
I am enrolling in massage-therapy school!!!!!! I am totally excited. I ended up living with my dad's ex-girlfriend's family and …
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the movers are here
May 28, 2008 4:26pm
I am about to take apart the computer. Except for the library I will not be able to get online. I will stay in touch as much as possible.
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VERY IMPORTANT TO MY FRIENDS
May 27, 2008 8:04pm
Okay, I don't have much time, but I wanted to tell any DS members who I frequently talk to that I may be offline for a little while. I am …
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Hugbook
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Hug
hello sunshine :)
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I’m With You
Hi hun i can't remember what it said but it was something like a poem,telling us how good we all arebut i'am no going to be forwarding anymore messages because it is just to much for me ,only if it is realy importen then i will send it,huggies for you,love,your friend,carla7777...xxoo...hugs...I am always here for you hun...
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Hug
hey tex,wishing you a nice and safe 4th weekend! hugzzz take care
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Hug
glad u did darlin, i'm stoked for it too
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Hug
yes!!! thanks for the invite. that was very sweet of you. i don't laugh enough. i used to laugh so much more. i'm looking forward to it!!
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Photos
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Anxiety
When I'm in a crowded place I feel all eyes on me (even though they're probably not) and when I hear bits of other people's conversations I feel like they're talking about me.
Close Meningitis
I had Spinal Menengitis when I was just a baby. I had a fever of about 106 when I was two days old. I was in the hospital for another six weeks. While there, they did a cut-down (whatever that is) and now I have a big scar. My mom also said something about spikes in my head. I don't remember anything. I am 23 now and was wondering if there were any possible long term effects.
Open Depression
I have been on medication after medication after medication. I don't feel like I am depressed, but the doctors don't agree.
Treatments
- Celexa Not Working
- I sat around with my jaw clenched.
- Effexor Not Working
- Didn't feel any different after a month's use.
- Geodon Working / Worked
- It made me think of killing. I didn't want to go out and kill people, but death was a frequent topic in my head.
- Paxil Not Working
- Had a psychotic breakdown while taking it with Topomax
- Seroquel Not Working
- Seroquel is the devil's drug. I sleep 15 hours a night, and while I'm awake, every time I stand up I pass out.
- Trazodone Not Working
- Gave me bad headaches and put me to sleep.
- Writing Working / Worked
- Writing always helps. It helps me see things in a different perspective.
- Zoloft Not Working
- I didn't feel any different. Didn't even have any side effects.
- Lamictal Somewhat Helpful
- It would have helped if the blood vessels in my lips hadnt bursted.
Open Brain Injury
When I was a baby just born I had spinal menengitis. I had a fever of over 105 and I think it may have cooked my brain. Then, when I was 5 or 6 I fell down a steep hill and landed face first on a rock. I got six stitches in my eyebrow. I fell off my bike and crashed face first into the curb cracking my skull when I was about 7. I feel like I am constantly going in circles. Like life is one long dream repeating over and over in cycles.
