Shades of Grey
June 7, 2008 8:32pm
A hundred shades of grey, with all the colour stripped away. Tear at me, tear at me, I start to fray. In all earnest I must say, that I just look @ …
Progress
20 %
PandorasPlight’s Profile
-
About Me
I am an adult recently diagnosed with AS, my area of avidity is verbal I score in the 98 to 99 percentile which translates to the top 1% to 2% in the entire nation my capability to utilize this should have resulted in Children's Books but with a differential gap of being able to use it in actualizition at just 36% I have remained stuck. Right now I feel great frustration, even pain over the lack of adequate adult services. This is NOT a gifted life!! "Every man of genius sees the world at a different angle from his fellows, and there is his tragedy."
Interests
Writing, studying, pondering, mulling, exploring, soul searching, gazing @ the stars, waiting to "be!"
-
Recent Activity
Tuesday
-
PandorasPlight replied to SentientParadox’s discussion post Heavy topic here. Beware! Could be can of worms! in the Asperger Syndrome support group 10:44pm
Reads, stares gaping, turns quietly and walks away.…
Monday
-
PandorasPlight gave stevo a Hug 12:38pm
Tag your it! I am here waiting on ice coffee. My best writing is with the jerk ex if ONLY I could get…
-
PandorasPlight gave stevo Flowers 12:21pm
Sorry I was offline!…
-
PandorasPlight replied to headingwest’s discussion post photographic memory in the Asperger Syndrome support group 2:15am
I learned that laser is a word deived from an acronym of the following: light amplification by the stimulated…
July 8
-
PandorasPlight replied to SigS’s discussion post sexual perversity and asperger's in the Asperger Syndrome support group 2:02pm
Mime there has been more and more threads popping up here and there, I think that is what made SigS wonder…
-
-
Journal
-
-
My Crayon Box
May 28, 2008 8:41pm
All the beautiful colours, snagged up one by one, stay in the lines, the sky is not red, trees are not purple, who the Hell sets these silly …
-
Beyond a Curiosity
May 23, 2008 12:47am
I lived my life as an alien child, so much seems so surreal! There were geniuses supposedly who came to talk to a six year old me, for a while it was …
-
What Are The Odds
May 18, 2008 5:05pm
Not quite so much closer as I should like in regard to this but a karma event has made me aware of what my destiny is, what I must do even if now it …
-
The Psychological Ramifications of Atlantis
May 17, 2008 9:06pm
I first came up with this at about age five, my brother Dennis was caught up in the historical import that finding Atlantis would have, he was …
-
-
Photos
-
-
Support Groups
Close Asperger Syndrome
I just feel LOST!! I am trying to find my way!! So strange I have this condition which is considered complex but the me underneath loves simple things: patchwork quilts, wild roses in June, lilacs in May. I am waiting on God to point me in the direction HOME as I need to go there but right now I do not even know where that is! I do not want pity, I don't want to feel any of the uglies: anger, bitterness, blame, I just want to be me and to know that is o-kay. I am so weary...
Treatments
- Crying Working / Worked
- Sometimes I feel I have done this far too much!! Still due to how I was mishandled, even mistreated there are times I feel the old RAGE infringing upon me but now I have context, I have WORDS for this thing!! So I allow myself to release it and feel the genuine pain I prefer this anguish over allowing that to own me and it NEVER will again!!
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- I hate the addictive quality but my PANIC can be so severe this really helps me to center and with my life in flux permits me to sleep!
- Pets Working / Worked
- My Maine Coon kitty Kindred ( BIG boy!! :) ) I often brush my face with his bushy tail very comforting.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- With LIMITED adult services, He is the ONLY one who can REALLY understand what this feels like for me!
- Talking Working / Worked
- Kelly who I felt an affinity with from the onset, knowing somehow she had the missing puzzle piece and could FINALLY take me back to a time & a place where I was 8 years old, she has been a MAJOR help as she has been involved with AS and even attended Temple Grandin's lectures!! Harbour Church Emma, Shawna, so much light & LOVE!!
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- This is helping I KNOW but my life is in such disarray which renders it less effective.
-
Snapshot
Recently …
- 2 hugs given
- 3 hugs received
- 2 discussion replies
