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Journal Entry for January 7, 2008 Mood

Monday, January 7, 2008

It was one year ago today that my EX left.

I would never have thought I'd be in the place that I am today. As most everyone knows who is going through or has gone through a divorce, you really DON'T know if you will be able to make a go of it. Questions that you ask yourself...Will I ever be happy? Will anyone ever love me? Will I ever be able to love? Will my kids ever be OK? Will I be able to "make ends meet"? I was afraid. I was lonley. I was confused.

Then I met Kim. Thank God for DS. Thank God for Larry. I now realize that things do happen for a reason. Somehow we were meant to find each other. To support each other. And then fall in love with each other. Kim has filled a spot in my heart that I didnt know exsisted. She loves me for who I am as I love her for who she is. We support each other when things are tough. And we celebrate the the things that we have overcome.

Some people may not realize how someone can fall in love the way Kim and Myself have begining here on DS. I honestly feel I know Kim better than I knew my EX after 18 yrs. During a long distant relationship you have plenty of time to "talk" and "listen"...I mean really talk and really listen. Thank god for free Verizon to Verizon!!! We literally talk for hours every evening.

Just a few things that I love about her??? Her sense of humor, Her passion for whats right, Her love for her children, Her intelegence, Her fiesty side (yes I've seen it!!) and most of all her honesty.

As I look back at some of my older journals I realize that I only THOUGHT I was weak. That I was dependant on the EX. That I didnt deserve happiness. That I didnt deserve REAL love. That my love was not "worth" anything to anybody.

I was wrong...

I am happy. My love is not taken for granted. I have NEVER felt this loved. I AM making it. I feel very very fortunate to have found such a person as Kim. I have never looked forward to the future the way I am now.

I have come a long way...and I'm proud of it!!!!

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Comments

I'm happy for you - I really am! It's so nice to see 2 people fall in love. Makes me think anything is possible after divorce. Hugs!

HopefulInOhio
Anything IS possible, Cowboy :)

You are an amazing man, whom I have grown to love very much....

Thank God for DS and Larry!!! I am still sad that he will be attending the wedding.... He will definitely be there in spirit though.

KimN3
That should be, NOT attending.... Redneck Spellcheck.

KimN3
Yea Haw!!!! Gotta love the happy ending...can't wait until you ride off into the sunset. Betcha Larry will pull a few strings with the man upstairs and make sure the two of you have the most beautiful sunset...no doubt.

JennM
Congrats to both of you. You both deserve happiness. I met Larry, in fact, I spent 4th of July with him. He was a wonderful man with a BIG heart and great sense of humor. He will be there. I am sure he is up there just looking down on all of us and happy for the two of you. I too miss him very much. I feel for his children. I wish you both all the happiness you deserve.

happystylist
It's so nice to read how things have changed for the better for you and how happy you now are. I wish you and Kim much happiness :)

kokie
Look at you now...how far you've come...everything happens for a reason and looks like your reason is Kim! Best Wishes...

Violets0408