I see hell in your eyes =)
July 24, 2008 8:51am
Things have been so crazy this week with ups and downs.
I cut the night before i got my ring. I wasnt really feeling exceptionally bad or …
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"Crying isn't secret, Its the art of how we grieve. " - Blue October
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About Me
Im 20 years old, a full time student and working full time. I recently got engaged to a man i love very much. I have been struggling with borderline personality disorder for several years and just last year was put on medication for it. I was doing well on the medication until my parents kicked me out of my house and now i cannot afford my meds anymore. Im just looking for some support.
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Recent Activity
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ashdragon wrote a journal entry updating their Controlling my Emotions goal 8:51am
Things have been so crazy this week with ups and downs. I cut the night before i got my ring. I wasnt…
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ashdragon gave tinkerbell88 a Hug 8:31am
yeah my myspace is www.myspace.com/overrated_and_underpaid ive thought about trying to get some --istance…
Yesterday
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ashdragon gave tinkerbell88 a Hug 9:14pm
no i havent read that one but i have read "sometimes i act crazy" which is by the same authors...its…
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ashdragon and tinkerbell88 are now friends 9:12pm
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ashdragon replied to Alyssaprovancher’s discussion post I Cant Find A way To tell them in the Family Issues support group 7:32pm
i had the same problem with my parents.....i went 7 years battling depression, self injury, and borderline…
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If u never understood...this may give you some insight
July 17, 2008 9:03pm
"Bad Habit"
by the dresden dolls
Biting keeps your words at bay Tending to the sores that stay Happiness is just a gash away …
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I wanna have control...
July 16, 2008 9:55pm
Ok....so i kind of lost control of my emotions today....however i managed not to throw my laptop across the room so i count that as a plus.
I …
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Just rambling, sleep deprived thoughts
July 13, 2008 11:12pm
The speed of life terrifies me.
People moving in a thousand different directions at once
We collide with a starkness that id deafening
The band we …
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Im just learning how to smile....thats not easy to do
July 12, 2008 9:29pm
"You know i live for the day when you say baby lets just run away" - Everclear
I feel so stupid and pathetic.
I have …
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Hi hun, doing OK today?
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Love the tattoo on your back, amazing work.
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do u have myspace or anything
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yeah i know what u mean. i see a really great therapist. and im on seroquel and its working wonders for me. i havent cut in over 100 days. im sorry you cant stay on ur meds. im on SSI so maybe u could try getting that
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im bpd too and thought we could stick together. i dont know too much about the disorder, but have u read the book "i hate you, dont leave me"
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Self-Injury
Treatments
- Tattoos Working / Worked
- i just need more money to keep up with the amount of ink i would need to keep from cutting
Close Anxiety
I suffer from panic attacks when my stress levels reach a certain point. They are crippling and can effect me for days at a time.
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Somewhat Helpful
- Works to an extent but when my stress gets too much and my mind starts racing....it just doesnt help anymore
- Lexapro Somewhat Helpful
- Was on this for several months till i lost my health insurance. Seemed like it helped my anxiety somewhat but i think i wasnt on a high enough doseage.
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)i was recently diagonsed (December 07) with bpd but was told that i have probably been afflicted with this from the time i was very young. I am desperatly seeking answers to this disorder but they know so little...its so frustrating.
Treatments
- Lamictal Working / Worked
- worked great until i had to come off of it due to money reasons....i wish i had a means of still affording it
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressionbeen suffering from depression since i was very young....just trying to find help
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- sort of helped...but i usually forgot everything after the session was over...prolly why i quit therapy
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- just helps to get stuff off my chest....but im usually too scared to share it with anyone....kinda sucks to feel so alone
Open Panic Attacks
just started getting major panic attacks about two years ago....i can only control them half the time...the other half of the time they are crippling
Open Bisexuality
um...im me =)
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
im me
Open Family Issues
Um...its complicated
Open Healthy Sex
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