razgirl48’s Profile

Open Depression

...i have really been and "felt" depressed most of my life-i been in and at alot ofcounseling places for treatment and my diagnosis is dysthmic (sp)? chronic depression

Treatments

Lexapro Somewhat Helpful

i was prescribed lexapro while in a hospital for alcohol abuse it seemed to help in the beginning but then wore off and dosage kept being increased and i didnt care for that so went off it myself/dont know whether to try again-----

Meditation Working / Worked

im just in the beginning stage of learning how/ i am hyper and its hard for me to relax

Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful

i find when my thoughts are totally negative i turn to using affirmations or turning my thinking around kind of challenge it maybe? but it works awhile but it doesnt seem to last or stay with me

Prozac Not Working

i felt too weird on it did not like the side effects

Psychotherapy Considering

i have been in so many different clinics i guess idid like going and i did find it helpful to have a "certain" someone i could trust and tell my troubles too continually on a scheduled basis so im trying to maybe get back into therapy currently

Writing Working / Worked

i really love and enjoy expresing myself thru writing i do find it difficult if not impossible at times talking verbally

Open Self-Injury

i used self injury a very long time ago in my early to late 20,s---i started out cutting and then switched to burning--i pretty much stuck to thatbut iremember the only reason being was after cutting it was always too hard to cover up hide the mess no blood w/ blistering althou sometimes theyd burst but only a clear fluid leaks--i somehow need the pain to make or own my pain-i dont know where my feelings go and its hard when i get overwhelmed stressed out--

Treatments

Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful

i used to be in therapy however even thou my counselor was aware of my s.i.,ng they did not do anything to try and get me to stop i had to stop on my own----

Talking Considering

i cannot really talk about it--especially after ive cut or burned but i like to write or go online for help---

Open Multiple Personalities

hello my name is jen, jenni, (jenny) jennifer ect...im not sure if im multiple .have never been diagnosed-well i pretend-- i do not have any memory lapses or forgetting things or buying things i dont know of--i started this game in my head im very unhappy who i am- always been unhappy who iam how i look /DONT look why not make up bein different " looking" people i know how each one looks and what they like even why they are but i know i do not switch -i just do it in my head as a game ---