mysticthunder's Journal

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL YOU LADIES ON DS!! I pray that you have a wonderful day no matter what you do or don't do, this day is for YOU!!

Yesterday I went to see the Arthritis doctor, he is the doctor that is just fantastic...gee I wish all doctors had his personality and smarts, the world of doctors would be just awesome! He decided that since my blood sugars were FINALLY under control, he would give me some injections in my hips for the bursitis pain, I thought to myself, sure it will help and how bad can it be, after all I had cortisone shots before and they didn't hurt...WELL he first pushed around on the very painful spots going down the outsides of my thighs and marked them with a pen REALLY HARD so that when he wipes off the stuff that he used to santitize the area, the marks would still be there, HOLY SHIT that hurt and I teased him about giving me ink poisoning...LOL OUCH! Then he used this spray to numb the skin, at first it was really cold then all of a sudden it felt like someone was burning my skin off, literally OMG OUCH...then he stuck the needle in and mind you I didn't feel that one, but I felt the needled moving around in my muscles...while he was injecting a mixture of 3 different steriods...I had this done 5 times...3 injections in my right hip area and 2 in my left hip area...I was laying there thinking...gee I wonder what it would feel without that cold burning numbing medication. He even asked me if I wanted to do the injections without, I decided against it, there is a reason he used that stuff to begin with!

I have been taking predisone for 3 weeks now for my asthma, so I am thinking OK, I will eventually be out of pain in my hips, BUT my blood sugars are going to be HIGH...so its time to up the dosage of my diabetes meds for a little while, and sure enough I woke up this AM with a fasting of 186! OUCH...I expected this tho, you can't possibly have so much steriods in your blood stream and not have high sugars...it looks like I will be poking my fingers often....yesterday after the numbing stuff wore off, I could hardly walk, OUCH...my hips hurt like hell and he told me that to feel the full effects of the injections it might take a week or two and so far today my hips still hurt, BUT I did sleep better...I am a side sleeper, so yes sleeping last night felt a little better...I hope its all worth it in the end...the next set of injections will be in my shoulders in 3 months! Yipee I have that to look forward to after my mastectomies...I am getting a second opinion...I see another surgeon on Tuesday and this one is a female and 90% of her surgeries are for breast cancer, I feel really good about it, thanks to my WONDERFUL mother who found her....then depending on what she tells me which I feel she will probably give me the same answers and suggest a mastectomy, I am going to see the plastic surgeon on Thursday and he will take payments....he is the same plastic surgeon that did my mom's surgery and my brothers lipo! I feel very thankful today, I am thankful that I will not die of breast cancer and I am trying to make this into something positive...Today is a good day in my head and I am going to TAKE ALL I CAN TAKE as long as its positive!!

TODAY....I look at it as well there isn't nothing else I can do, I have to have this taken care of, the emotions to it all just suck, but in order for me to be cancer free I must do what it necessary...being a woman facing losing her breasts isn't a fun ride, its emotionally draining...its just not easy to explain....I pray that no one else on here faces these mental, emotional, and physical challenges....my wish is that they find a cure for this awful diease...having this is knowledge..its totally amazing to me how many women and men actually have Breast Cancer, its almost like an epidemic...we must find a cure, we must give hope and encouragment...we must LIVE...