sassyrab's Journal

Well, Sunday afternoon my old friend Luis called after keith left.  I was crying for about 30 minutes before that.  Guess it was something I needed to do.  He asked me if I wanted to go have dinner and watch a movie no strings attached.  It was so perfectly orchestrated. The conversation was wonderful and stress free.  We went watch a band after at artmosphere and talked.  I got home around 11.  He was leaving for offshore on Monday so I wont see him for a while.  Its nice to get out once in a while.  And nice to have someone that respects your boundaries.  Im so hands off right now.  I would cringe if someone touched me.  I guess thats a good thing.  Need some me time.  Then last night a big group went to marguerita madness night.  The head honcho in the education dept had overheard me and Jessica talking about going and asked if he could come.  He showed up and we all had a great time.  Had a wonderful conversation with him till about 1 am.  So today, the old lady I am, I napped all day and am going to bed early tonight.  The stbx is trying to be normal and sends funny emails every once in a while.  He texted me Sunday apologizing for being cold.  I told him it was fine and the texts after that I just deleted.  I cant let him back in.  Life is getting too good and I dont want anyone getting in my way again.  Im not trying to be cold, just know that Im worth alot and I wont be put down again.  I have completely accepted that my marriage is over.  And its ok.  Life now is better than it ever was because I have awareness. signing off.  Rebecca