somuchtogive's Journal

Hi Everyone! Thank you so all who have taken the time to email and send hugs! I am so sorry I haven't written in my journal in a LONG time. I just am having such a hard time with no being able to  get pregnant. My cousin had her second child (within 14 months). I just get so sad and keep asking the retorical question "Why not us?!" But i do truly feel that God has a plan for me and my husband and when God feels we are ready to be parents he will bless us with a child. I guess that patience is not one of my qualities. And having everyone ask around us ... "so, when are you and your husband going to have a baby?" How do you address a question that seems more frustrating than anything? I just answer ... someday. Thank you to all who continue to have me in their prayers!

I decided to take time for me! This weekend was all about relaxing and taking time to enjoy my husband and spending time with him. We went away for the weekend and didn't think about anything that normally stresses me out. I turned off my cellphone and I scheduled a spa appointment for a message. I am glad we did this! I was able to relax and rememeber what I am thankful for in life...my family, my husband, and my true friends. I do pray that the rest of the year goes better than the last 7 months have been. Thank you to everyone who is always thinking of me. :)

Well today was just not a good day for me in some sense. I was unfortunately in a car accident (i've never been in before). I was driving by myself on my way to visit my mom. I was scared out of my mind! I was on the freeway and on the fast lane. I hit my brakes to avoid the person infront of me and i swevered and crossed the 4 lanes of the freeway and a van hit me on the side which in turn spinned me, i lost control and went down the embankmant. I do thank God that nothing worse happend to me. I was very blessed to have not been hurt much worse. I am just so stressed right not and i dont think I will be driving again anytime soon. I guess it's just another reason for stressing .... i know this isn't helping my case to trying to get pregnant. Well, I hope the remaining of my weekend is better.... :(