I don't know what to write here anymore. Why do hurts from the past sometimes come back and make us crash again? It's not fair and Eckhart Tolle says that you should stay in the now and all, but it's so hard! Every time I think this goddamn depression is gone, it sneaks up on me and ruins me again. I was once so strong and I know that part of me is somewhere inside of me, it will always be there, it's who I am. Why is it so hard to keep a hold on myself?! It's so aggravating! I try so hard to remember who I am, my mom tells me not to forget, but if I take the smallest break from fighting, I have to start all over again! How many times will I have to go through this? I hate it!