timmy18's Journal

Lately Abbie has been complaining of headaches and an upset stomache and diarhea and just overall feeling lousy.  Thursday night she vomited in her bed and ended up coming in my bed in the middle of the night.  My mom kept telling me that something was really wrong with her, but I figured it was just a bug going around cuz in the evening she would feel fine and go outside and play with her friends in the neighborhood.  Well, Friday my dad took her to the Cardinal game.  She complained about not feeling good again, but she really wanted to go, so I let her.  My dad said she slept the whole way there (about 2 hours) which is unusual for her.  About 8:45 I got a call from my dad saying Abbie had had a seizure and then had projectile vomiting.  They took her to first aid and she was fine, but they were on their way home.  I guess he called my mom next cuz within a couple minutes she called me.  She said all these symptoms were symptoms of pressure in the head and there could be something seriously wrong with Abbie.  Now I was freaking out.  My daughter was 2 hours away and I was thinking she was seriously ill.  The only thing I could do was wait and it was killing me.  So I went to my parents house to wait with my mom.  While we waited my mom got an idea.  Abbie's neurologist recently started her on a new med and last Mon the dosage was increased.  So we looked up the side effects and sure enough the med was causing Abbie's symptoms.  Whew!  We called her doc and he had us decrease the dosage and moniter her for the next day.  If she was still showing the same symptoms then I was supposed to take her to the ER.  Well, she got better, but not completely.  Her stomache aches were still there.  Yesterday I called the doc again and she's been taken off that med completely and her other med is increased.  If her seizures aren't controlled by this then they'll have to put her on something else, but at least she's ok.  I was scared sh*tless.  I prayed so hard and cried so much!  I think the hardest part was the fact that she was so far away.  I felt so helpless.  I was almost transported back to the day Timmy died and I was doing CPR but it wasn't working.  I was helpless.  I couldn't do anything for him just like I couldn't do anything for Abbie Friday night.  After she got home and everything was fine, I thanked God over and over again until I fell asleep with Abbie in my arms.  I can't imagine what my life would be like without her in my life and thank God I don't have to.  At least, not now.  You just never know what God has planned.