timmy18's Journal

Well, here i am at work again.  I really didn't wanna come back after this weekend.  The weather was great.  Saturday Abbie played outside with her friends most of the day while I piddled around the house.  Then we went to church.  After church we went out for supper and the high school was having prom.  I loved seeing all the girls with their dresses!  It reminded me of when I was in school and how I loved going to the dances.  Picking out the perfect dress was soooo important.  It was such a beautiful day for prom too.  Sunday I went to the Cardinal game.  My dad got box seats.  He invited me, my sister, and her husband.  I wish Abbie could've gone.  I know she would've loved it.  It was a great game.  They played the Cubs and anytime the Cards and Cubs get together the atmosphere in the stadium is awesome.  There is such a friendly rivalry between those two teams.  I go to at least one game between tthe two of them every year.  Of course the Cards won.  I'm a HUGE Cardinals fan.  I come from a long generation of Cardinal fans.  If I was anything but, I might be disowned! (just kidding)  I got to use my favorite line a lot last night-Completely Useless By September.  Get it?  After the game one Cubbie told me to just wait til September.  WHAT?  They haven't won a World Series since like 1908 (I think)  If not, it's real close to that. 

Anyway, I didn't get home til 1:00 am so I am REAL tired.  I really didn't wanna get up this morning.  I told them I was gonna come in late, but Jeff kept calling me and wouldn't stop.  Don't let me get started on Jeff.  UGHHHHH!!  He's a guy who I met several years ago.  My daughter is friends with a boy and he is a friend of his parents.  Apparently one time I went to pick up Abbie and Jeff was there.  It was love at first sight-for him.  I guess he's a nice guy, but he's obsessed with me.  He calls me constantly and if I don't answer the phone he just shows up at my door.  I couldn't drive for a year (i was having trouble controlling my seizures) so he drove me around, which was very nice of him.  When I was finally able to drive, I bought a car and the first day he called me 5 times!  I don't need to talk to him everyday, but he feels like he has to talk to me every hour!  After my ex and I broke up he immediatly told me he loved me.  I told him I was in no way in love with him or ready to be in a relationship.  He bought be a ring for Christmas and on Valentines Day he bought me flowers and a card.  I opened the card and there was a watch inside.  The card read "I know you're not ready for a relationship, but I have all the time in the world"  Sweet right?  But I don't like this guy.  He doesn't get that.  He won't give me any space.  If we're in the same room and I walk to the other side of it, he'll follow me over to the other side.  Plus he stands right beside me whenever we're together like he's claiming me or something.  It doesn't matter what I say, he'll agree with me.  I could say one thing and he'll agree and then immediately say the opposite and he'll agree with that. (I've tested him on this)  I don't know who he is.  He tries to be who he thinks I want him to be and it is soooo irritating.  I just want him to leave me alone but he wont and I don't know how to get him to.  The thing is, I wouldn't mind hanging out with him every once in awhile if he weren't so clingy.  Doesn't he realize what he's doing?  He's really is a nice guy, but he's suffocating me.  He's around so much that there's nothing to talk about when he's there.  He just comes over and sits there while I cook supper or do laundry or whatever.  It's like he doesn't care as long as he's near me.  I just wanna scream at him to go away and leave me alone!  But I don't wanna be mean to him.  He's not being mean, just irritating.  It stresses me out though and that's not a good thing.  I'm so glad I found this website so I can vent in this journal.  :) I feel so much better.  I'm sorry to anybody who actually read this.