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well me and my brother just had a talk and we decided that he will be going home early. honestly i just got fed up. i'm tired of yelling. i don't like to yell and its not working anyway. he just doesn't listen to me and he doesn't care about my belongings. i felt a little bad about just kicking him out so i decided to kinda indirectly ask him if he wanted to go home. so we talked and he wants to go home now so there he will be going. it is kinda easy since he was so receptive. i mean if he didn't really want to go then i probably would let him stay. don't get me wrong tho i've enjoyed having my brother here with me the past 2 weeks besides the destroying my home and property part so a part of me doesn't want him to go. its nice not being alone so much and having someone to talk to even if i am yelling sometimes so i can appreciate that part.
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i had a seemingly bad night last night. i was headed for work but right as i was leaving i found out the battery was dead. i felt so alone and felt like i had no one who cared about me. it didnt help that i let some words my boss said to me when i called in break me down but i don't want to focuz on that. i want to focus on what happened after that. when i was in my car all alone crying my eyes out and the first person i thought to contact was a person i met on here and she was there for me and suddenly i didnt feel as alone anymore. then when i went back into the house and had my little brother here. he can be a handful sometimes but when i was down he was here for me
and kept my mind off feeling down. then my mind went to call a guy who i never really considered my friend until after last night but we talked for a minute and he really got my mind off of everything. all these people were here for me and i feel so thankful from the bottom of my heart. if it wasn't for these people i would be feeling horrible and very depressed for i don't know how long but becuz they were there for me i immediately felt better after interacting with all three of them. it feels amazing to feel like i have friends. i feel so blessed right now and i'm crying tears of joy.
and kept my mind off feeling down. then my mind went to call a guy who i never really considered my friend until after last night but we talked for a minute and he really got my mind off of everything. all these people were here for me and i feel so thankful from the bottom of my heart. if it wasn't for these people i would be feeling horrible and very depressed for i don't know how long but becuz they were there for me i immediately felt better after interacting with all three of them. it feels amazing to feel like i have friends. i feel so blessed right now and i'm crying tears of joy.
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I love you and would do anything I could for you. You mean a lot to me
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thanks for everything tp. that means alot to me. you mean alot to me too
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you are a sweet person and im glad things are getting better for you. love ya, Terry xxx
i'm supposed to be going to do some volunteer work today. i'm already late. almost 30 mins. i really don't feel up to it. how am i supposed to help people when i feel like crap myself. i'm just going to stay home in this pig pen and rest up and get some sleep cuz i have to work again tonight. i just got off of work and i am tired. i really hope they don't fire me where i am volunteering for not calling or showing but right now i really don't care. i really want excel at this opportunity but today is just not a good day for me honestly. i had a socially stressful day at work and now i have to figure out what i'm going to do here at home. i just honestly don't know what to do anymore. i feel like nobody cares about me and my relationship with my brother just shows that. it just shows how horrible a person i have been these past couple of years. i don't even know my brother anymore and he is nothing like me. maybe thats a good thing.
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I know how you feel where you have those days where you dont want to get up and do other things honestly thats how some of my days are. Your not up for it, but you have some more things to do. I encourage you to at least call the volunteer place to tell them your not coming. work on yourself for the next time around. Who knows this could be a place, that when brightens up your days
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I love you and care about you.
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know that you are a sweet friend who i care about a lot. you are not a horrible person, you are a lovely, talented young woman who nneds to share your gifts and talents more with others. i am always here for you. dont hesitate to give me a call or chat request. Terry xxx
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i care. i just have a lot of things going on right now. sometimes you have to let things die, to grow from. if you lose the volunteer position, youll find something better, and will have more motivation. if you dont lose it, well alright! (^_^) either way its a win & win. no reason to get worked up over it. ((hug))
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((hug)) hope you dont take it to hard. its sometimes hard to readjust.
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