stylishez's Journal

Fake attraction!

There was a time I longed for the day

That your eyes didn’t feel the need to stray

And that I truly fulfilled those few

Heather, Alenda, Lisa, Sue?

But now daily I re-live this pain

My constant forgiveness had no gain

You seemed to forget a had a heart

You caused to break, why did you start?

I cant remember the first tear or cry

Or when us became this dirty lie

The reflection I see is no other

Than sad, lost as the more I discover

Your history should have been my clue

That loving me was never true

Was your past is what you said

Again to find I’d been misled

For you not me, could let me know

But instead you made of me a show

I ask, had I not endured enough?

The road of stones bumpy & rough?

Babies, marriage and to relocate

Where was truth? for goodness sake!

What were you trying to achieve?

I no longer know or believe….

Had not I explained the past, my hurt?

Should this not of been an alert?

But you persisted with your game

Lied and cheated without no shame

An apology I did not deserve

No goodbye.. left at the curb

Dead…to you I no longer exist

Gone to try the rest of your list

Who am I? who have I become?

Anger, pain the weight of a tonne

Why this, why that, why on earth me?

I didn’t think I could lose at such a fee

What now? Oh of course revenge!!

The record of lies indeed extend

To God I must leave such a task

Onto me this sorrow must not last

To you one day you will find

You’ll love and things of that kind

Will offer your life just like I did

Give her everything with one bid

She’ll turn and take what you possess

Leave you nothing more or less

Then your pondering will begin

My sadness and your big fat grin

If not now but maybe soon

From a place, a picture or a tune

You will remember me and be sad

The heart I gave and what you had!

Maybe You will ask God to forgive

Look to him on how to live

And lose the desire for that sin

So you wont form a new victim!