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Thursday, May 8, 2008 | A Call For Help story

TODAY IS A HARD DAY. I FEEL SO ALONE. I MISS MY BABY SO MUCH. ITS HARD LOOKING AT PICTURES OF HIM LATELY. I JUST BREAK DOWN COMPLETELY. IT HAS BEEN VERY HARD GOING WITHOUT MY HUSBAND. I DONT HAVE ANYONE I CAN DISCUSS HOW MY DAY WAS ANYMORE. NO-ONE BUT YOUR OTHER HALF CARE TO HEAR ABOUT ALL THE DETAILS OF YOUR DAY DAILY. FAMILY & FRIENDS WILL COME AROUND BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY THEY HAVE THERE OWN FAMILY TO GO HOME TO & THATS UNDERSTANDABLE. SO WE WILL SEE HOW TOMORROW WILL BE.....FOR ME PROBABLY MORE SHOPPING THERAPY. I AM PRAYING NOT TO GO BROKE.THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO TO EASE MY PAIN RIGHT NOW. IT TAKES A LOT TO MAKE ME LAUGH OR CRACK A SMILE NOW DAYS. I DO NOT CARE ABOUT DRESSING UP ANYMORE BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I DO NOT HAVE ANYONE I CARE TO INPRESS ANYMORE. MY BABY WAS THE ONLY ONE THAT ALWAYS TOLD ME I WAS BEAUTIFUL. SO RIGHT NOW I JUST WANNA LOOK DESCENT. GLAMOUROUS IS NOT WHAT I AM IN THE MOOD FOR ANYMORE.

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I can feel your pain. It has just been 10 months since my baby boy died. This Mother's Day is especially hard. When I feel overhwelmed with grief, I just begin to talk to God and listen to worship songs that remind me of God's grace and His ability to soothe my pain. It helps a lot. Praying for you. I know just how you feel. How long has it been?

vidame
Im sorry you are having to go through this. You are right, its not an easy road and you are way too young to be dealing with it. Im too young.. Just get through the day the best you can, cry if you need to, scream etc.. It does help. If you need to talk message me anytime. This Monday will be 16 weeks for me.

Sandie203