just thinking...
June 2, 2008 9:31pm
Well ok, I had two no purge days followed by 2 purge days-and today was pretty bad- better than my last week's episode, but still bad. I …
Goal Completed on May 6, 08
mikjc’s Profile
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mikjc
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About Me
I recently graduated from college with my masters in occupational therapy and I am right now waiting for a job. I have a big heart and just love helping people. I eventually want to be a medical missionary or join the peace core. I love sports and spend most of the day (at least right now) at the gym. I used to play college soccer and will hopefully find an adult league so I can get back in the game!
Interests
I have a passion for the outdoors and enjoy doing anything active. I like painting- but only to express my emotions. I am also interested in neurology and psychology. I hope to one day go back to school (but not for at least 20 years)to get a doctorate in psychology. I also like to play games and tell jokes!
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writing is helpful...
May 30, 2008 9:50pm
Well writing seems to be helping me, no purging today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AI am having negative body comments, more than normal...or maybe I …
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I dislike my brain...
May 29, 2008 10:43pm
I am so frustrated. I saw blood today, I know it came from my throat as I scraped it while attempting to purge... I hate myself when I actually take …
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frustrated
May 28, 2008 11:17am
I am so frustrated and ??????????? right now. I hate that I still do not have a daily routine, I can not wait until I can finally start a job. I need …
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Support Groups
Close Eating Disorders
Life with ED started my sophmore year in college.My soccer coach noticed a weight drop and told me I couldn't play until I gained-soccer was my life & I was horrified.After a summer of hell I was able to gain enough to play my junoir year.If it wasn't for soccer I would have never gained the weight. Ever since I have been suffering from EDNOS.Now I restrict, purge, and over exercise.I fear that I am going to end up in a wheelchair (I workout 35 hrs a week)-I am determined to beat this disease!
Treatments
- Dietitian Consult Somewhat Helpful
- I saw one a few years ago when I first had a problem and was at my worst. I think it was helpful-however when I was seeing her I hated it and refused to listen- although now I wish I had.
- Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- I went to an outpatient clinic that had group therapy 3 days a week for several hours each night. It was very helpful, but I did not like it b/c I was angry that I had to go- it was either I go or I was kicked out of college.
- Lexapro Not Working
- This medicine made me feel psychotic and I was not myself. I wanted to do strange stuff like run my car into the wall-although I never would have done that. I quit taking it after a few weeks and felt much better
- Outpatient Treatment Program Somewhat Helpful
- see above group therapy
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Very helpful especially now that I have finally admitted that I have a problem and will talk about it without really holding anything back. I have decided that if I want to get better I have to put my pride aside and tell it like it is-otherwise I would be wasting my time.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Support from friends has been very helpful, although family tends to be triggering.
Close ADHD / ADD
I was one hellion of a kid-into EVRYTHNG!I never did anything that bad,I was just VERY hyper.Now I can use my hyperness in a more productive manner.I have a lot of sensory&learning issues.Having to work harder than others to learn has contributed to my persistance,love for people who are different,and patience.I can hyperfocus on small details or not focus at all.I love being creative,genuine,and carefree but HATE my diorganization,inability to sit still,& my difficuly w/ realtionships.
Treatments
Open Food Allergies
Type of allergy: Other FoodsI break out whenever I eat eggs or when I go outside in the sun.
Treatments
- Allergy Shots Working / Worked
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- EpiPen Working / Worked
Open Vegetarians & Vegans
Type: VeganI quit eating meat b/c of 2 reasons: 1. I got sick several times my freshemen year of college from bad meat- our cafeteria failed health inspection with a 49 three times in a row! 2. My school was in a city with a chicken plant and it smelled really bad especially when it was 101 degrees outside in the middle of soccer preseason training- I woudl get so noxious! I am also allergic to eggs and milk. There is also the reason of feeling sorry for the animals of course!
Open Self-Injury
I began cutting in high school after reading my older sister's diary and saw that she did it. I was experiencing pain and had no way of expressing it so I tried it. I don't do it often anymore (I think twice in the past year). For me it is a way to relieve pain when I feel boxed up and unable to express my most intense feelings.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Rubber Bands Somewhat Helpful
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
I can't recall most of my childhood, it was filled with constant yelling&belittling from both parents and older sis.I felt like an embarassment and failure. Nothing was ever good enough. My parents also hit me alot- it wasn't too serious of physical abuse but was enough.My mom was taking out her anger on me, which came from my dad's narcisstic ways. She treated me alot better as I got older and is very supportive and loving (we have a great relationship now that my parents are divorced)
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Sports Injuries
Treatments
- Heat Working / Worked
- Ice Pack Working / Worked
- Physical Therapy Working / Worked
Open Sensory Integration Disorder
I hate loud and busy environments,picky about clothing(it can't be too tight or stiff & has to be soft), very sensitive to smells, and hate flourescent lights. I am sensory seeking and crave vestibular and proprioceptive input. I love to spin, move, & climb stuff. I also DON'T like physical touch-deep pressure is ok sometimes.In college I sat on a bouncy ball to help with arousal level. My family and friends think I am strange b/c of my sensory needs, but that's why they love me!!
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
mikjc hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Fitness Goals
Treatments
- Aerobics Working / Worked
- Climbing Working / Worked
- Dancing Working / Worked
- Elliptical Trainer Working / Worked
- Hiking Working / Worked
- Kickboxing Working / Worked
- Pilates Working / Worked
- Running Working / Worked
- Strength Training Working / Worked
- Weight Training Working / Worked
Open Asperger Syndrome
I think I may have mild asperger's. My occupational therapy professors in college actually pulled me aside to discuss the possibility. Although I am not diagnosed I exhibit alot of symptoms like difficulty with social interactions/cues,tantrums, sensory sensitive,literal & concrete,hate small talk, only read nonfiction,& require structure/routines. I am unsure if the symptoms result from ADHD,asperger's or both. Really it is irrelevent,I am how I am and I like being a unique & genuine spirit!!
Open Pre-menstrual Syndrome (PMS)
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