Journal Entry for June 19, 2008
June 19, 2008 7:08am
Progress
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Goal End Date is Jul 19, 08 14 more days.
solowulf’s Profile
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solowulf
is feeling Horrible
About Me
Not much to tell other than Im very depressed and suicidal.No family, no friends, no hobbies other than xbox 360, Sit by myself all day with curtains closed.No will to live am in a black hole, yeah that about sums me up.A waste of space.
Interests
Dont Drink, Dont Smoke, Dont Do Drugs, all work and no play makes Johnny a dull boy.
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Recent Activity
June 19
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solowulf wrote a journal entry updating their End It All goal 7:08am
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Too Late To Turn Back Now
May 7, 2008 4:41pm
Ain't it funny how we pretend we're still a childSoftly stolen under our blanket skiesAnd rescue me from me, and all that I believeI …
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Muzzle
May 5, 2008 8:05pm
Smashing Pumpkins:Muzzle
I fear that I am ordinary, just like everyoneTo lie here and die among the sorrowsAdrift among the daysFor …
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Poem
April 28, 2008 10:37pm
Understand death has no use for time.No time is any better, any worse.Cancel twenty years or eighty-nine,Love's a loss one cannot reimburse.Each …
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Oh God, I know the feeling. You need sunlight!! It truley helps your brain. I'm sure you have some good qualities!!! Maybe you have no friends, me either. But that doesn't make you worthless. I know how easy it is to get wraped up in your depression, it over runs your life until you just want to crawl into a hole and dissappear. And you probably think no one would care. Thats how I feel often. Dr.s can help. I've tried meds for years and the thing I think you need is Prozac. If you're not taking anything go IMMEDIATLY to a Dr. even if you have to put it on a credit card, go right away. You don't need a shrink, any regular Dr. can prescribe Prozac. If you are on med.s you definately need a change. Try it if you haven't already. I am Bipolar and prozac didn't help with some of my problems. But it did help with the desire of ending my life. It gave me a chance to see a better day and get a plan into action to get better. Right now I have no friends because I have a cruel controlling husband, but that will end some time in the next few months and I an looking foward to a new life. It's goo to have something to look foward to. Go get some med.s or change what your on I promise you'll feel better. I'm not saying cured, but better is an improvement and you gotta take what you can get. I'd like to talk with you some time. I am not very consistant about checking my messages but I look foward to a message from you! Take care. And GO GET BETTER!! I MEAN IT!!
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Hey, love the cool flaming skull from Ghostrider---hope everything's okay
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Flower
I thought that these might make you smile if even just a bit.
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Support Groups
Close Depression
: Clinical (Major) DepressionHad depression since I was about 18 been on every anti-depressant in the book.Doctors love giving those out and none of them helped other than to turn me into a prescription junkie for temazepam and diazepam.I was on those for years very high dose and did the doctors help me to come off them?nope I went cold turkey by myself and havent taken any medication for about 6 years.They have tried putting me back on prozac but all these tablets do for me is make me dopey so I wont be a problem for any doctors.I have no faith in the medical profession they have let me down every single time.I have been feeling really bad since I passed my driving test in Dec 06 and got a car Jan 07 and the first time I took it out on the night I got lost and about midnight on a deserted road a 17.5 ton lorry smashed into me and drove off the car was a right off and I couldnt claim on insurance as I couldnt get the drivers licence plate.Ive not been in the car since.Ive pretty much given up now with life.
Close Hypothyroidism
Been diagnosed with Hypothyroidisum for about 2 years now although I probably had it for many years.What makes me laugh is when I see an endocrinologist he says my levels are normal like 5.0 or 4.8 or something and that is normal.Yet in America its only normal if its 3.0 or under,figure that one out if you can.The other thing they like to tell you is if youve read this information in a book or on the internet then everybody is lying!These people really !! me off as they are incompetant.
Treatments
Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
Been like this off and on for years but lately its been very hard.Keep thinking of ending it all actually thats all I think about.
Treatments
- Patience Considering
- If I can make it through a whole day without thinking about it then its a good day.
- Psychotherapy Considering
- Waiting over a year now and still no appointment.God bless the NHS!
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Sometimes it can help if there was someone to listen but there isnt.
- Writing Considering
- Probably not.
Open High Cholesterol
Cholesterol keeps going too high becuase I have hypothyroidisum.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Had car crash early Jan 07 since then been in a daze.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Considering
- Been waiting over a year for an apointment.
