Journal Entry for April 24, 2008
April 24, 2008 6:26pm
ive just found this website and i hope it will do me some good, i think it is good to get things down, i always find it easier to write then to talk …
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i'm 25 years old. ive just started work full time as a care assistant have a lovely son who is five and is growing up so fast, A loving partner who i have been taking things out on alot and really appreciate him sticking by me but sometimes wonder why he does. I lost my dad 13 weeks ago and have been trying to put on a brave face and carry on with things but today things really got on top of me and I found out that all my dads belongings have to be out of his house by monday, also i lost my mum 10 years ago in june this year, i want to start looking at the positives in life but find it hard and then i found this site so thought i would give it a try.
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Close Depression
clairepol hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Parentmy dad died suddenly of a heart attack 13 weeks ago today at the age of 65 and my mum died 10 years ago when i was 15, i know my dad is now with mum and thats all he ever wanted but find it so hard at times to carry on and keep asking why was he taken away from us so suddenly and blame myself for things i might have been able to do.
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- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- i normally cry by myself as i keep trying to be a strong person on the outside
- Getting Angry Not Working
- i take it out on my partner and then feel cross with myself that he doesn't deserve me shouting at him all the time and then cant understand why hes still with me but he keeps reasurring me that like will be ok and he loves me but deep down inside i just want to fall apart
- Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful
- its good to talk to other adults but if they havent been in a situation like yours then i get the impression they get bored or try and change the subject so i tend not to bring my feelings out at work and try and get on with my job but get low at times and feel like walking out as i feel its unfair that i'm looking after people who are 80 plus.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- classical music does at times but when i put on my dads favirote cd which i love it just brings back our last christmas together as thats one of the last times i remember him playing the cd, and he was happily singing along to it.
- Pets Somewhat Helpful
- this is the one thing i love doing taking the dogs out for a walk to get some fresh air, i have also got my mum and dads budgie which is great when listening to her song
- Talking Too Soon to Tell
- just found this website so i hop it does some good
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