CravingHeart's Journal

I haven't been around...I feel like I haven't really been anywhere the past few days.  It's like I'm in a constant daze, living a dream.....and it isn't necessarily good...

I feel kinda numb.  Like nothing is really happening...

I don't know why.  I feel like this sometimes, but it never lasts for this long.

Haven't even felt like eating much (surprise!)  Haven't been starving myself, but have only been eating about one small meal a day.....at least they've been healthy meals.  Pasta, chicken.  It worries me a bit, though....now the one thing that had the ability to make me feel better doesn't even do it for me anymore.  Not that I'm unhappy...I'm just nothing. I feel nothing. 

I guess I'd rather feel sadness, pain, I'd rather hurt than not feel anything at all.  At least then I'd know I'm real, that I'm living, no matter how unhappily....

I just feel very bizarre.  I'll try to talk more on here, as I know this is probably the most helpful/healthy thing for me right now.  Strange.

Hope everyone is doing alright....I have thought of you.  Hugs.