Better.
June 14, 2008 4:30pm
Things have been..better. Mostly better.
It has been about one month and one week since I've purged. Not to say I haven't …
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Goal End Date is May 7, 08 80 days ago.
CravingHeart’s Profile
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CravingHeart
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About Me
I am a twenty-year old college student and server. I live on my own with the two loves of my life (thus far)--my cats, Loki and Meeko. Whatever I'm doing, I'd almost always rather be reading. I've been known to break out into a fit of giggles for no reason in particular other than to laugh. And I believe that things happen for a reason--and especially that "good things fall apart so that better things can fall together." I struggle with bulimia (b/p), and have decided to confront my problem and CHANGE. I don't want to be living my life this way any longer. I AM a great person and I need to start living my life as I deserve to. I'm here to give and get support--Say hello!
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A bit...foggy.
May 14, 2008 7:20pm
I haven't been around...I feel like I haven't really been anywhere the past few days. It's like I'm in a constant daze, living …
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Good Day.
May 8, 2008 3:54pm
This day has been pretty good so far, especially in comparison to how my days have been going. I feel good. I had a 9AM appointment with …
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Frustrated.
May 5, 2008 11:12pm
Went and saw counselor today--and basically told her to fuck off. Not in so many words, but I did let her know that I felt her repetitive questions …
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Who I am...wait, who am i?
May 5, 2008 1:46pm
Ate not one...but TWO bagels last night (one blueberry, the other nine grain from Panera)..with cream cheese...GOBS of cream cheese. I even …
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Close Eating Disorders
Type: BulimiaI've been struggling with bingeing and purging. I overeat until I feel that I just might EXPLODE, and then I step into the shower and throw it all back up. I constantly suck in my stomach to make myself look thinner, and stand in front of the mirror scrutinizing my body for at least an hour to two hours daily. All of these things combined makes me feel like an awful person, like I'm not worthy..but deep in my heart, I know I am..I just need help realizing all of the reasons why I AM.
Treatments
- Paxil Somewhat Helpful
- Took for anxiety for a couple of months--didn't much help, didn't take for very long.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Mostly the counseling just heightens my awareness of how SCREWED I really am. The only useful bit so far has been her suggestion of online support, which has been MOST helpful.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
Close Tuberous Sclerosis (TSC)
My twenty-four year old older brother has Tuberous Sclerosis. He also suffers from severe autism and epilepsy. As is common with this disorder, he has frequent grand mal seizures. He needs constant care and supervision, and will for the rest of his life. He attends a day camp, and lives at home with the rest of my family. He's very possibly the greatest person I've ever met in my life...
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have dealt with severe clinical depression on and off for approximately eight years. Have seen a couple of different therapists/psychiatrists, and have tried many, MANY cocktails of "happy pills," none having anywhere near the desired effect. My middle/high school years are a complete blur as a result. In general, I feel that I'm just waiting around for the next bad thing to happen in my life. I still have hope, though..hope that there is true happiness out there.
Treatments
- Celexa Somewhat Helpful
- I think?
- Effexor Not Working
- ZOMBIE
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- Just recently started taking for anxiety in place of any benzodiazapines (allergic)
- Paxil Somewhat Helpful
- Don't recall this as being helpful/unhelpful. It just was.
- Prozac Not Working
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- Great for getting high.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- ZOMBIE. Also suicidal tendencies..
- Writing Working / Worked
- Above all else, this has helped the most.
- Zoloft Not Working
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