Shalynn's Journal

So much drama!!!!! I feel like such an idiot. At the moment, we are living with my moms friend and her family. Her stepsons hate us. Her and her husband left for two weeks, and we left for a weekend. While everyone was out, one of the kids, Brian, went in my room and read my whole diary. I poured my whole fucking heart and soul into that thing!!! It was the only private thing I had. This is the note he left in it, basically:

bisexual, hmmm? I always knew.

stupid girl.

good luck with that, carpetmuncher.

loser.

go fuck yourself. oh, wait, already did, more than your liking. we read the whole thing and enjoyed every bit. you're so funny.

When I read it, it was such a blow that I started to cry. When mom got home, I was too scared to show her. Eventually, I did though. Now she knows Im bi. At least, I think. She never said a word about it, so Im confused as to whether I am now out to her and she is denying it, or if she didn't get it...

Its not like I care what he thinks, but now he knows everything about me. I can't take all that info away from him. It is such a violation of my heart. And then to say he found it funny? I let out all of my pain and confusion in my diary. Of course, it's partly my fault for not remembering to hide it.

He doesn't know I've seen it yet. I'm waiting for the dad and stepmom to get home, so that I can confront all of them. I let all the other stupid things he did to me slide, but I can't ignore this. This is worse than poking holes through the eyes of the pictures I had in my room! Which he did.

 Now I'm confused with my mom and violated by him, and Justins email didnt exactly help. I feel like he disregarded what I feel by ssaying that high school is the wrong place to figure things ot and that high school relationships never last. Im so confused right now! This sucks!!!