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Getting worse before better. Mood

Thursday, May 8, 2008 | A Painful story

Today is the first day that I felt too depressed to care for my daughter. I haven't been able to stop crying all day. I don't want her to see me like this. I actually text messaged my husband and asked him to pick her up from school for me to give me a few extra hours by myself. I have finally stopped crying...guess the tears dried up. But I feel horrible. I don't know how much longer I can take feeling this way. I just don't know what to do with the pain. I feel helpless. And hopeless.

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You didn't do anything wrong,as they say keep your chin up, your stronger than you know. You'll show your daughter it too. Take Care of You !

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Oh, these feelings you are having are right here with me, too! I know you don't want validation, but trust me I'm having the same thoughts. We love our children more than life, but I'm going through the motions right now. I'm off in left field when my child speaks to me. As much as I want to give him some normalcy, I just can't! Yesterday, I posted about waking up wondering why he gets to think that it is ok to leave to "clear his head". He's left me with our child, 2 dogs, a broken drier, cracked walls throughout the house, doors that don't shut nor do they lock, etc, etc, etc. I would tell you to hang on to one day at a time. It is so hard, but right now that is all we can do. Let me know if I can help or if you want to talk.

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