NikiJo's Journal

Choices

Friday, May 16, 2008 | An Inspiring story

While I was reading the posts here, and listening to so many voices who have gone thru this, and those who are beginning this difficult journey, I reminded myself of some of the Choices that I have had to make. Some were so difficult it hurt physically to make them, and I constantly questioned myself, if I was doing the right thing for myself and my kids.

I have to believe that everything that I did was to get me to this place where I am now. These things that have happened to me have made me grow and learn and trust in myself.

I made a choice not to allow someone else to put his hands on me, ever!! I made a choice to come forward and admit that my marriage was not what I thought it was, (It seems that I was the only one who didn't see this coming!) I made a choice not to allow myself to live in chaos, with lies and mistrust. I made a choice to open my eyes and my heart to whatever comes next in my life and not go back to that place where I gave away all of my power to someone who didn't cherish it as they should have. I make a choice everyday to be grateful that I have my life, my children, my stregnth, and I remind myself to use this experience to grow from and not make me a bitter sad person. What a waste it would be to have not learned from this.

So, make your choices, stick by them, listen to your friends and family when you can't see straight in front of you, they will guide you and you will be a better person for accepting life's challenges and going thru them not hiding from them, they won't go away!! You have to go forward, if not you just live in the past and will never know what the future could have been for you.

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Did you write that just for me..!! Oh my gosh it sounds exactly like what I need to do..I do to one point then I pull back and keep letting myself seeking his attention..."I gave away all of my power to someone who didn't cherish it as they should have" That got me teary eyed..it's as if he feels since he has all the money that he has all the power..in a way he did and does..shouln't be "does" since we aren't together currently...maybe I am just seeing it that way...I DON'T KNOW...I'm glad you made your choices and you stick to them..I have to get more will power...it's coming SLOWLY...

tammygirl9379
This is a very well written journal entry. I agree 100% with each and every word you wrote!Thanks for posting it because today....on this kinda down day for me....it reminded me of the very things that I already know to be true.Once again, thank you. Have a truly wonderful day!!! :)

isthisall4me
this is an awesome journal entry. you are so strong. i wish you peace and joy. i am slowly learning to trust in myself, but it has been hard.

Cynthia35
It angers me that any woman (or anyone else)has to make such choices because of the way one man has treated them, women have a tough enough time without abusers making their life hell, Heres a (((Nikki)))be strong.

TheBrit