is feeling OK
What you see is a picture of my 17yr old middle child that was killed in a car crash on Feb. 26, 05. He would be 21 this fall. Yes, he is beautiful, inside and out and always was. losing him has changed mine and my family's life forever - I, we will never be the same. In an instant things became only before and after. I am a mother of 3; Jonica, 23; Kelly James(would be 21); and Josh, 19 and they are all beautiful. I have been married to my best friend for 26 years. I have always had recurrent Major Depression, for the last 10 years or so fibromyalgia, degenerative joint desease, and for the last 6or 7 yers. cronic pain; sacyrilitis. I have just recently/finally diagnosed with PTSD, which explains a lot of my problems and episodes throughout my lifetime. I am in therapy once a week, Iam on many meds for this and that. I am on disability because I am not able to function in the working world anymore.
I love animals, outdoors when it's warm, gardening when my body lets me, losing myself in music, reading when I can concentrate, writing when I am inspired, croche' and making things out of recycled clothing ect... I have a lost love of painting and playing piano, which I have not been able to find just yet. I have a heart for teenagers who suffer, need someone to talk to and listen because I was a troubled teenager and my son was too.
May 14, 2008 2:50pm
I am one to set my sites too high sometimes and then I always fail. I decided to work toward losing 30 pounds for now and then go for more when …
May 9, 2008 3:34pm
I know it's been too long. I have been either enjoying the sunshine or curled up in bed or on the couch in pain. I did talk to my …
April 29, 2008 4:05pm
I havn't felt great lately. I worked outside alot, in my flowerbeds, while the weather was warm - this part was a good thing. But my …
April 26, 2008 1:26pm
I just joined this group maybe a week ago. My goal was to write in my journal this week. So here I go. Beware, I am a rambler …
Checking on you hope your having a good day xoxo
Came by to say hello I haveen heard from you I hope your ok have a good week love Caroline
Hope all is welll my friend I am thinking about you xoxo
Thinking about you and wanted to check on you how are you doing?? hugs.....Caroline
45 yr old wife 26 yrs & mother; 23, (20), & 19. mid, (20)crashed frnd's car, died at 17 Feb. 26-05. all goin thru grieving prces, exper dif thngs dif times. back 2 work 1 wk aftr death. hsbnd, son & dautr exelnt. I,ve bn fallin aprt. mult phys & mntal cnditions cmplcate thins. brkdwn, lost job, latr on dsblty. in trtmnt . psych said find support grp. nitmrs, day drms, anx getin out of bed &b b4 goin neware by mslf. fl unsaf drvng. panc atacs wn ambulance go by. cn't do groc shopng or anthng
45, 3 kids, 4th out of 5 kids in my family. Suffered from Major Depression all my life. Parents didn't recognize problem till I graduated HS, it is genetic, been in hospital 4 times, seen several pshyciatrists...many medications, lost my middle child 3 years ago, complicated grief, breakdowns at work - no longer working, on disability (for this + med. conditions). My husband is patient and faithful to be my best friend and support.
multiple degenerative joints, sacrylitis and fibromyalgia. can't sit in streight chair long, stand, or walk for long, sleep in hard beds because it hurts to the touch. spend many days out of commission just laying on the couch or in a soft bed. Just do the minimum around the house. My love is gardening but I can only do it little bits at a time. added stress makes it worse. Itook a long long time to get doctors to take me seriously and try to treat. My family is supportive and understanding.
started having chronic pain after my third child was born and I went back to work. It took 17 years of running tests to diagnose me.
