archangels's Journal

I,m not having a great day or night for that matter! i saw the consultant today and the tumour they told me on my kidney [my only kidney!] was origanally was benign now i find out from the renal biopsy it is cancerous and i will either have the whole kidney removed and no doubt spend more time on bloody dialysis as well as having to go through radio therepy and chemo,i feel so lost and afraid at time,s that i don,t know what to do,my mum keep,s throwing strop,s because i can,t walk down to there house [my parents] and do there shopping or because i,m not feeling good, why should i have done the shopping before i felt sick! i just can,t win,my brother has only yesterday brought his own house and moved out after living rent free with my parent,s for over 10 years, i thought it was 8+ years,in that time he has not paid any housekeeping for his living there,then he moved his girlfriend in and she paid mum £120.00 a month! can you believe that? she wouldn,t even get a box for that amount of money! and he has a car and used to take mum shopping which i know he,ll carry on doing! but it makes me mad that both my brother and my sister own cars they live nearby they accept money for petrol even though the shop is not far away! they are very sly my brother and sister and i am disgusted that they would even ask my mum for money to go to the shops,it would have been cheeper to get a taxi!

I whenever clive has taken us out have never once taken money to take mum out! and we would never do that my other two brothers are livid that them two are so nasty as to accept money for petrol! i believe what goes around comes around,and maybe one day they will hang there heads in shame for being so greedy,my brother is in full time work and earns over £26.000 a year my sister sponges off the state,yet whenever i am ill my sister thinks i,m playing on it!! how the heck can you play on being ill!

Clive is getting very fed up with my running around all over the place when both my brother and my sister live within a two mile radius and i live over the other side off the town,i know i should just let them get on with it but they took care of me when i was young yet when i,m ill they just moan about it! so i no longer say anything because i,m in truth fed up with it all,i,m almost looking forward to going into hospital to get some rest.