jazzinjamerican’s Profile

Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

Been to traumatized to go into too much detail. I have been abused and raped, and in a car wreck and lost someone all within 2 years.

Treatments

Art Somewhat Helpful

I can not cope with the pain.

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful

I just could not get my mind off of these things.

Reading Somewhat Helpful

I can not concentrate because of the pain.

Talking Somewhat Helpful

It helps for the moment but it is so painful to talk about any of these things.

Zoloft Not Working

It nearly killed me, and I went temporarily insane for a week because of it.

Open Infidelity

I had an affair and even though my husband has forgiven me I am still torn up and it is really affecting me real bad. I was hurting at the time it happened and it made it worse. I was on drugs and alcohol because of some stupid Klonopin I done all these things. It made me a different person and changed my personality. I regret going to the doctor who put me on it.

Treatments

Forgiveness Not Working

I still feel immense guilt.

Leave Somewhat Helpful

I stopped it but I am feeling so bad about it.

Open Rape

Been through it four times, and I really blame myself. I question myself constantly why did I not get away. I was scared and thought I would be killed or knocked out, but I am just suffering greatly because of it.

Treatments

Talking Somewhat Helpful

I am still dealing with alot of pain and emotional issues and sexual dysfunction. I feel so dirty and bad.

Open GERD & Heartburn

I have had it for three years. I found out after going to the ER in the middle of the night because I thought I was having a heart attack. It was horrible and I thought I was dieng because it was so painful.

Treatments

Antacids Not Working

Work for the moment only to bring on more severe and painful episodes.

Apple Cider Vinegar Somewhat Helpful

This taste so bad but it works wonders.

Open High Blood Pressure

I have high blood pressure and of course am obese and I hope I can get it under control. I am very high risk for stroke and heart attack.

Treatments

Atenolol Not Working

This made me feel real bad.

Benicar Not Working

No I felt horrible and it made my BP bottom out to like 65 over 30. Real scary stuff.

Fish Oil Somewhat Helpful

I did not feel as bad when I took it.

Open High Cholesterol

I found out I had this six minths ago. It is scary and I am just hoping I will not have a heart attck or stroke.

Treatments

Fish Oil Working / Worked

I felt alot better when I took it.

Open Arrhythmias
Type: Tachycardia

This scares me because if I exercise it goes to 240 BPM and I feel real sick when it happens.

Open Acne

Have had it for awhile but got worse in my twenties. It is purely hormonal now and because of oily skin.

Open ADHD / ADD

I have suffered from ADD a long time and it has held me back alot in life. At work in school at academics and just life in general.

Treatments

Focalin Not Working

Quit taking it.

Wellbutrin Not Working

Made blood pressure go real high.

Open Accidents

Horrible car wreck that nearly destroyed my life and has done alot to hold me back. I now have neck and back pain I got whiplash, and guess what the man had no insurance that hit me and my hubby, and the police failed to do there job. We were screwed over and if we would of been a not interacial couple we would of been treated better.

Treatments

Physical Therapy Somewhat Helpful

It reversed some of the damage. I still have numbness and tingling in my arms and hands.

Open Alcoholism

In recovery and been sober for 5 months going on 6. I have been an alcoholic since I was a teen to hide my inner turmoil and not deal with the pain of my life as a teen and a child.

Treatments

AA Meetings Somewhat Helpful

Go to one were people are not court ordered like a church group that is were people seem to take it seriously and are not looking for a sex buddy.

Cold Turkey Working / Worked

I did not want to die.

Willpower Working / Worked

Open Anxiety

Scared of crowds and new people and constantly fear my family dieng and I see them dieng and it scares me when I have these erratic thoughts of losing someone.

Treatments

BuSpar Not Working

Horrible

Klonopin Not Working

No way it made me a clepto and a sex maniac and I cheated on my hubby while on it. It made me do some bizarre things.

Lexapro Not Working

Nope

Zoloft Not Working

Nearly killed me.

Open Anger Management

I fly into intense rage and am angry at people especially people who are at church, police officers, and little rich snotty assholes, and I hate stupid people and I get real angry while driving.

Open Back Pain

I get tensed up alot and knots form in my back. I had a car wreck and was injured.

Treatments

Chiropractic Adjustment Somewhat Helpful

It helps temporarily.

Massage Working / Worked

Works wonders. Fortunately my husband is trained in this area.

Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Relative

My grandma died from cancer and she was the best person in the world. She was humble and so kind and it happend 4 years ago. I was so hurt and she meant alot to me. Also my little sister nearly died 10 years ago and it was so painful nearly losing her. She was 14 at the time but it really stuck with me.

Treatments

Crying Working / Worked

It helped alot.

Helping Others Working / Worked

Keeping Busy Working / Worked

Poetry Working / Worked

Reading Working / Worked

Remembering Working / Worked

Remembering the good things about grandmas life helps alot. Seeing my mom hurt doesnt help at all. I think it nearly killed her losing her mom.

Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked

Talking Working / Worked

Time Working / Worked

Open Bipolar Disorder

I found out I had it 6 months ago. I do not believe it though really. I do have alot of bad times and then good and it is like a crazy cycle of never knowing when things will be good or bad for me.

Treatments

Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful

Geodon Not Working

Nearly killed me.

Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful

Risperdal Not Working

Sucks

Symbyax Working / Worked

It did help a little.

Wellbutrin Not Working

Made my BP go real high.

Open Breakups & Divorce

Got married at 18 and divorced at 19. He was crazy and delusional and very abusive. I regret this part of my life big time. I am now married again for 4 years and things are ok but not the greatest.

Treatments

Forgiveness Not Working

He is still an ass to me and says crap about me even though he was like 10 years my senior. He manipulated me into marrying hime after 2 months of knowing each other. He is just not a nice person and I can not forgive him. He tool my virginity and alot awy from me.

Leave Working / Worked

Talking Working / Worked

Time Working / Worked

Open Cocaine Addiction & Recovery

In recovery for nearly 5 months. Nearly lost my life to this and my husband and never would of dreamed in a million years I would of become an addict.

Open Eating Disorders
Type: Bulimia

Was a bulimic and suffered the consequences. My health is real bad and I am only 26. All the things I suffer from pretty much physically are because of bulimia. I am now 100+ pounds overweight and can not lose weight because I messed up mmy bodies whole system.

Open Family Issues

Was abused and controlled as a child and it has screwed me up bad.

Treatments

Talking Somewhat Helpful

Still hurts and affects my life.

Writing Somewhat Helpful

Pain is still there

Open Female Sexual Issues

Can't enjoy sex unless high on marijuana. I feel dirty about sex.

Open Financial Challenges

Live on $1,000 a month for me and my husband together. We see no way out and are caused alot of grief because of these things.

Treatments

Budgeting Not Working

I do not even make enough to budget.

Open Healthy Relationships

I really do not know what a healthy relationship is.

Open Healthy Sex

Been married four years and sex is like a thing of the past. I have health issues and I used to like sex but now I can not enjoy it.

Open Infertility
Type: Ovarian Issues

I have PCOS and I am 26 and have had one miscarriage when I was a teen.

Open Insomnia

I only have this when I have a job or have to go to school the next day.

Open Interracial Relationships

I have been in this relationship 5 years, and we live in the South. People stare and we do not have many friends at all. I mean we feel isolated and we feel the hate and racism towards us. He is Jamaican and I am American. He is dark and I am white as ever.

Open Marijuana Addiction & Recovery

I love this stuff, but had to choose my life and marriage over it.

Open Obesity

I became obese at age 22. I love my body but I am in poor health now.

Treatments

Acceptance Working / Worked

I love my body but America does not and I do not care. At least Jamaica loves it and that is were I got my man from.

Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)

I obsess over things people say to me. I count constantly and do other things that are obsessive.

Treatments

Lexapro Not Working

I hate drugs.

Zoloft Not Working

This stuff is evil.

Open Painful Intercourse

I bleed and I can not get lubricated even with replens. I used to love sex now I can not even make love to my husband.

Open Panic Attacks

I know all about these. I had a psychotic break one time from this and then a nervous breakdown, I have been at the ER several times to be given tranquilizers to stop them after I would actually let a doctor come near me after screaming for hours.

Treatments

BuSpar Not Working

Klonopin Not Working

Made me do some stupid things.

Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful

Zoloft Not Working

Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)

Suffered from this for years and often question and feel unsure of what I like or need approval for decisions I make, and I do not know alot about it but it has made life hard for me.

Treatments

Talking Somewhat Helpful

Open Phobia
Type: Social Phobia

I have alot of phobias. I am obsessed with dying and always scared to death of my family especially my husband dying. I am scared of the dark I mean terrified. I do not like bugs I fear them very badly. I have a constant fear of death by fire, or some freak accident, or I have this constant fear of sudden and intense pain. I have been held back alot because of this. I also fear being wrongfully accused of something and going to prison and I fear people really bad.

Open Prescription Drug Abuse

I was addicted to percocet which is a highly controlled substance. I was on Lorcets and other things. I prefer to stay away from all prescription drugs.

Treatments

Residential Treatment Center Somewhat Helpful

So bad experience at rehab that I never wanted to end up back in there.

Open Sleep Apnea

I need a CPAP machine. Me and my husband both have this. WE snore very loud and he even stops breathing sometime. I do the same and I feel so tired all the time. I drool alot and my mouth stays really dry.

Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery

Quit March 1st of 2008 and I never wanna do it again. It is selfish and it is nasty.

Treatments

Cold Turkey Working / Worked

Wellbutrin Not Working

Willpower Working / Worked

Open Stress Management

I am beyond stressed. My nerves are shot to the max.

Open Urinary Incontinence

I have to wear Kotex because of this and I am only 26.

Open HIV

Not sure, but maybe I just need some answers.